We are all working hard, trying to live our lives like leaping earth.
One
"Last year I changed jobs again, not in the same one as before."
"How about this one?"
"This is a wholly foreign-owned enterprise, the treatment is not much different from before, slightly better, mainly no longer need to work three shifts, only day shift, monthly overtime is not allowed to exceed 36 hours"
"When our manager heard that I resigned, he was stunned, saying that he never thought I would resign, he always thought that my age would be much more stable, absolutely will not resign, there are old and young, will cherish such a stable job"
"But I really have no way, the original three shifts of the problem, let my body some discomfort, after all, the age is older, and the management of children is also the biggest problem, although the child is older, there are not so many details to take care of, but sometimes the shift will still be very inconvenient, afraid of children alone in the face of life accidentally deteriorated, children are after all my hope, or their own more with more company more assured"
"Is this new job stable?"
"The new job was recommended by my old colleagues before, and I dared to go after a long time of understanding, after all, for my age, stability is indeed the overriding importance"
"Oh, is there a new plan behind that?"
"No, just stay here until retirement, as long as the company does not fall, basically nothing will change!"
Chinese New Year's Eve afternoon conversations, and hair small that grew up together.
He smoked one cigarette after another, and the smoke did not cover the star-white hair on the top of his head and on his sideburns.
Hopes and ideals, for life, pale and powerless.
At a glance at the head of life, how dismissive we were, but now how cherished and yearning.
Two
"This piece of land originally had the second part of our family."
"Do you have any evidence to prove it?"
"What evidence is needed? We can go to the commune to check the original contract file and see how this acre of land is calculated. ”
"You remembered this land because of the compensation of these hundreds of dollars now."
Quarrels are a necessary means for rural people to solve problems, and the large number of people is the basis for quarrels, and sometimes they will fight with fists and feet.
The quarrel years ago was only due to the uneven distribution of compensation for land expropriation of a few hundred dollars.
A few hundred yuan, a meal in the city, can make relatives throw out of the cloud of nine, this is the power of a few pieces of silver!
"Leaving the hometown where I was born and raised for many years, I usually rarely communicate with the villagers in the township, I feel that there is no change in my hometown, that is, I found that the original very normal people have now become ghosts, do not speak human words, here even includes relatives at home, it is really a lamp blowing all ghosts, I am too lazy to worry about a bunch of things that are not, I wish friends in the circle of friends a happy new post-holiday workday"
The little uncle's circle of friends left angry words after this quarrel.
On the first day of the Lunar New Year, at the beginning of the new year, everyone went door to door to greet each other, saying hello to each other, and giving each other a blessing smile, whether or not it came from the deepest part of the most sincere heart. The unpleasant quarrel has long been put aside for the time being, and the new atmosphere of the new year has been blessed.
The harmony on the face is well known to everyone.
Although I feel that the money is not happy, I may still be in my heart for a long time and cannot be dispersed.
This may be the way people get along with each other!
Hate and not hate, always and need to tolerate each other, walk together.
Happy or unpleasant, it is the end of the year, after all, it is a new beginning, the old departure, whether it is a new quarrel in the coming year, or an old quarrel last year.
Three
"Your second cousin made a lot of money last year, much more than me, I now open a small supermarket, I and your cousin are still responsible for meat and vegetables, the others are rented to others, now the rent is expensive, the labor is expensive, I dare not hire people, the pressure is also large, there are many people who open supermarkets"
The eldest cousin pulls the talk of the family, the smiley face still reveals the meaning that life is not easy, life is difficult, it is always necessary to face, crying is a way, laughing is also.
"Although there is a house in the demolition, but the son is not yet married, there are still some things that have not been completed, so it is not yet time to rest, and we have to continue to work."
The goal of life for each of us is the same, to live, to work, to die, to die, because there will always be unfinished things, unfinished work, and unquenchable goals.
Maybe this is the rush of life, like the ants on the ground, looking for it, as if looking for the meaning of life, but from another point of view, it seems to be just alive!
"I don't talk anymore, I will fry the golden flowers with my old cousins again, and I usually can't get together"
"Are you so close that you don't usually meet?" I was surprised.
"Usually everyone is busy, they are dragging the family with their mouths, basically you have time, he does not, unlike when we were young, there is more time to be free to be together, usually it is difficult to meet, and now it is left to meet together in the New Year"
Life is not easy, and everyone may be the same.
Leaping soil, no longer just the young man who grabbed the fork and thorn, the all-time labor is the focus of his life now.
Now, Aquatic can ask Hong'er to go to the house to play, but Yan Tu no longer dares to shout out the Xun Brother of that year, the dilemma of the four walls of the family, and The Leap Earth knows it!
Four
"Usually do business, we must be careful, do not let others cheat Ha, especially in terms of money"
My uncle, who was already full of white hair, took care of me.
Hearing this, I felt that this was not like the uncle before, the uncle who regarded money as dung, who had always been generous to others, never stingy, and the uncle who never fortified had begun to compromise with reality.
"Rest assured, I'm doing acquaintance business, not big business, I'll pay attention"
Although I knew that he did not understand my life, I was still grateful for his concern, no matter how useless and helpless this concern was, but the strong kindness was worth remembering.
The eternal benchmark in my heart for people has begun to slowly become a little fragile and aging in my heart.
I used to like to envy his atmosphere, generosity, never calculating, never defensive, treating people sincerely and friendly, preferring to suffer losses myself and not owing anyone else the slightest, the same as my grandmother.
Grandma is gone, and uncle is getting old.
Aging is not just the body, really not just the body... There are others.
Perhaps each of us in the face of real life, once stubborn and stubborn, are just their own whim, life and our way of competition, never a hard bar you punch me a slap, but a little bit of soft grinding hard bubbles, grinding until you are exhausted, soaking until you are weak and powerless, and finally can only surrender!
What we have is only stubbornness, but what we have in life is time.
Surrender may be the only way we can finally reconcile with our lives.
Five
"Let's go back early, it's a little cold at home," I said.
Hurriedly packing up his luggage, the first three of the first three left their hometown where they had been haunted.
Out of the village, no one waved goodbye to himself, even if it was just a face-to-face and casual greeting.
Passing by were all closed gates, there was no one in the house, and the old men and women all went to a family in the village to help.
The old man of the family died on the first day of the Chinese New Year.
The only people who could help were the old man and the old woman.
The young men were gone and went back to their homes in the city.
Lonely countryside, lonely old people, lonely reality, we should be the same loneliness in the future.
I can't go back to my hometown, and all I'm left with is worry.
Six
"There are a few dishes, I'm afraid they've been hidden in the ashes of grass and trees by the earth."
We don't know if it's true or not, but that's what life really looks like.
The leaping earth is no longer the juvenile leaping earth of that year, and Xun Ge also has to sell his old house to make money to go to Beijing to get a living.
The leap soil is not good, and Xun Ge also has difficulties.
The leap soil is tormented on the hot pot of life, and the same is true for Xun Ge, but the degree of paste is not the same.
We will eventually live as we hate.
My heart loves the leap soil of that teenager, the brave teenager who holds up the thorn of a fork on the beach sprinkled with moonlight, with the novelty and expectation of life.
Mu Ne's leaping earth has been called Zhang Yunshui, he has taken another aquatic teenager, Xun Ge has become a "master".
Life is not easy, and it is cherished.
Seven
As a child, we counted the days of the New Year, there were 10 days, 9 days, and 8 days....
Now, we count the days to leave...
Is it the entanglement of life, or the entanglement of oneself?
The years have drifted away, but life has begun to slowly approach...
