Dictation: He Xuewen
Text: Years are like songs
Figure: From the network
That morning, I had just gotten out of bed when I suddenly received a call from my aunt in the countryside. My aunt cried and cried and said to me that my great uncle hanged himself last night.
I felt a cramping pain in my heart, my eyes went black, I fell to the ground, and my mobile phone flew out of the way.
Later, I learned from my aunt's mouth that the childless, childless, bitter uncle, found out the late stage of liver cancer in the county hospital, afraid of dragging me to work in the provincial city, refused treatment, returned home with difficulty, and immediately took this desperate road.
Only my aunt and I understood uncle's good intentions in our hearts.
But Uncle, you always do this, but you can teach me, a nephew, who has no redemption. It also doomed me to spend the rest of my life in guilt and self-blame.
After receiving the call from my aunt, I forced myself to calm down, hurriedly cleaned up, and then pulled up my son and wife who were on summer vacation and rushed back to my hometown to mourn.
As soon as I arrived at my uncle's house and looked at the statue in front of the spiritual hall, I could no longer control my emotions and cried out with tears in my heart.
The wife also cried from the sidelines.
After a while, tired of crying, I sat paralyzed on the ground, thinking about the bits and pieces of My Uncle's life, and I burst into tears again.
Suddenly, a sweet singing voice came at an inopportune time. I turned my head to see my son standing by, expressionless, playing with his phone.
Having been swallowed up by the grief of the erosion of the bones, I saw this scene, the blood around me gushed to my head, the green tendons were exposed, the face was vicious, and I slammed my son's mobile phone on the ground, and slapped my son twice with enough strength.
When the wife saw this, she quickly dragged her son to his knees, and the son immediately cried and howled. The son was obviously in pain and crying.
How can my son, who grew up in sweet water and grew up in the Internet and games, know the family history of my suffering, how can I know how much my uncle has made for this family, how can I understand my uncle's death, how uncomfortable my heart is.
We are a suffering family, and our ancestors were the poorest in the village.
The people in the village never took my family members seriously, and when they said it, they all despised us and regarded us as inferior, and no one looked up to us.
The reason for looking down on it is not only poverty and incapacitation, but also a point is that the image of the people in my family is ugly and the body is short,
The reason is also very easy to explain, the ancestors can not get a good wife, genetics, it is impossible to give birth to a good next generation.
In my father's generation, my uncle and aunt were miserable, with collapsed noses, big nostrils, big mouths, small eyes, dark skin, and a short stature.
The people in the village ridiculed us and gave the uncle the nickname "Sitting Cannon".
My father, on the other hand, grew tall and slender, and his face was fairly white. But he was born thin, weak and windy, and had tracheitis since childhood. The village gave him the nickname "Hemp Pole".
Although the uncle is unbearable, he is physically strong, wrestling when he was young, there are few opponents in the village, and he is intelligent in his mind, almost learning and knowing anything.
When working in the team, ploughing, ploughing, hoeing, and cutting are all exquisite. He also learned the art of hanging a horseshoe with a master who nailed horseshoes.
Hanging a horse's paw is not something that ordinary people can do, first of all, they must be able to tame the big animals, if the strength is small and cannot be tamed, it can't be done by jumping around, don't look at the big uncle is small, no matter how fierce the cattle, to his hands are obedient, obedient.
Horses, mules, and donkeys have thick cuticles on their hooves, like human fingernails, which wear and grow fast.
The cattle were subject to hard labor, and their hooves often touched the ground, and as they grew up, they would accumulate mud and other dirty things.
If the stratum corneum is not removed and the iron palm is hung, the animal will be broken, the cartilage of the rotten hoof, the light will cause the animal's leg to be lame, can not be labored, and the heavy will be infected and die. Of course, there is also the effect of preventing hoof wear and anti-slip.
The technique of holding the horse's paw is mainly to cut the depth of the cuticle of the animal's mouth, cutting deep to hurt the cartilage, and after nailing the iron palm, it is like a person cutting nails and cutting to the flesh, and the pain is unbearable.
Shallow, can't hang up the palm, within a few days it will fall off, does not work.
This craft is generally passed down from generation to generation, and the nail palm people are taught orally by their fathers, and they can only be done after many years of practice.
Of course, mastering this craft, the income is also considerable.
Uncle Tan is a person with a heart, he has long been helping under a teacher surnamed Tan, people are diligent and generous, mouth is sweet, Master Tan intends to teach him, one after another, a few years later, Uncle Master has mastered this skill.
This laid the foundation for the future uncle to rely on this skill to survive and support his family.
Although the uncle is intelligent and capable, and his character is high, because of his ugly appearance and short stature, marriage has become a big problem.
The people in the village also introduced him to the object five times, and most of the women were disgusted as soon as they saw the image of the uncle, turned their heads and ran away, and some women's blind dates only talked politely for a few words, and then there was no news.
As they grew older, their grandparents were so miserable that they made a decision to let their aunt change their daughter-in-law to their uncle.
My aunt was a few years younger than my uncle, but she was also old enough to get married. The reason is also the back road left by the grandparents, and once the eldest son cannot marry his daughter-in-law, he will come to "change relatives".
But when the two old men mentioned this matter to uncle, they were categorically rejected by uncle, and he said sharply, even if I beat eight bare sticks for eight lifetimes, I could not do this thing that hurt my sister.
Uncle Da knows very well that the image of the aunt is not good, and it is very difficult to find a smooth man normally, not to mention that changing relatives must be exchanged for a man who is either lame or blind, which does not harm his sister.
But the two old men hoped that their adult hearts would not die, so they carried their uncles on their backs, and the matchmaker found a neighboring village that was willing to change relatives.
Let my sister marry the lame man, and the girl marry the uncle.
Grandparents, first of all, did the work of the aunt, the aunt for her eldest brother, but also cried against the heart and agreed to this family affair.
But my uncle said that he did not agree with anything. My grandfather was so angry that he lifted the table and smashed the bowl.
In order to avoid the endless entanglement of my grandparents, my great uncle broke into Kanto in a huff and went to the second uncle in Jilin Dunhua.
But what Uncle Dabo didn't expect was that the art of hanging horseshoes that he had learned had been fully exerted here.
Uncle Da found that only horses, mules, and donkeys needed to hang their palms in The Guan, but the cattle outside the Guan also had to nail iron palms, which made him overjoyed.
As the saying goes, Shandong's wife kanto cattle. This means that the wives of Kanto are blessed and the cattle are sinned.
This is true. In the winter, the northeast is icy and snowy, whether it is going up the mountain to pull firewood, or sending dung to the ground, and even people rush to the store to use ox carts, because the ox has a steady pace, endurance, safety and practicality.
Cow hanging palm is mainly anti-wear cow hooves, and anti-slip. However, the cow's hooves are divided into two lobes, and one cow's hoof needs to hang two palms.
The hanging palm technique is actually similar to that of horses, mules, and donkeys, and the clever uncle will understand it at a glance and will do it.
When my second grandfather learned that my great uncle had this skill, he was overjoyed.
Because, at that time, there were not many people in the local area, there were not many teachers, and young people were reluctant to do it.
Although it is a little dirty and tired, it is no problem to earn money.
Therefore, my second grandfather ordered his son to give my uncle a hand, and he worked feverishly.
Due to reasonable fees, good technology, and little competition, uncle soon made money.
He sent most of the money he earned to his home, leaving little living expenses.
He knew that his parents were old, his brothers were weak, and life must be very difficult.
Although Uncle Da is in the northeast, his heart is still worried about his hometown in Shandong.
My great uncle is in the northeast, and he has two opportunities to get married, and he thinks he is thinking about the family and gives up.
Once, someone brokered him to give someone a gang, but he felt that it was unethical and resolutely refused. The last time was, there was an old girl in the second grandfather's village, and when he saw that he could bear hardships and earn money, he promised him himself, but my uncle considered that my father had reached the age of marriage, and he let go of it in advance, so he resigned.
A few years later, because my grandparents were in poor health, they were old and missed their eldest son, so they wrote a letter to ask my uncle to come back, and my uncle returned to his hometown.
After returning home, my uncle took out his savings, built three large tile houses, and gave my father Zhang Luo to become a relative.
(At that time, my aunt was also married to a man from my village.) He wanted to go back to the northeast to make a lot of money, but when he saw that his elderly parents were getting worse and worse, and my father couldn't afford to go home, he dismissed this idea.
He continued to do the local business of hanging horseshoes, and took care of several acres of grain fields with my father, until my grandparents died, he was still alone, and the two old men could only leave without regret.
Since having me, Uncle Has treated me as if he were his own.
From elementary school to college, the cost is all paid by my uncle. Because my father was a sick man, and my mother was not a competent person.
When I was admitted to college, my uncle was happy and didn't know what to do.
The village was full of streets and shouted, "My nephew has been admitted to the yuan!" My nephew was admitted to the title. ”
He said to my father with tears in his eyes, our ancestors have smoked green smoke, and our family will never be underestimated again.
I just gave up my old life, and I also want to raise my children into a personal character.
After many years, his parents, who were much younger than uncles, died early.
When my father was dying, he held my hand with tears in his eyes, I must not forget your uncle, without your uncle there would be no family for us, I cried and nodded my head.
After graduating from university, I made a home in the provincial capital. Buying a house, marrying a wife, having children, my great uncle never stingy, poured everything he had to help me, always afraid that I would not be satisfied.
Times have changed, and the art of hanging horseshoes has also withdrawn from the stage of history.
My great uncle is also old, he has no source of livelihood, and only relies on those few acres of grain fields to make a living.
Every time I went home to see him, I left him some money, but every time uncle put the money in the bag of agricultural products he gave me, I cried every time and asked uncle why he was like this, he always said, child, it is not easy to live in the city, your uncle does not need it, I am good to say, starve to die.
I invited my uncle to live in the city many times, and I took good care of him, but he always said that in two years, in two years, in fact, he did not want to cause me trouble and increase my burden.
Just a month ago, when I finally came to see uncle, I was driving, and I saw the uncle who was already skinny, hunched over, dragging his stumped legs, and when I picked up the garbage in the garbage can on the street, my heart was broken, my tears kept pouring out, my heart was colicky, and my heart was also crying out, my poor uncle.
I had thought that before the Spring Festival, no matter what, I would also take my uncle to the provincial capital and stay at home to fulfill my filial piety in the name of borrowing the New Year, but I never expected that my uncle would leave so resolutely.
My amiable and honorable uncle is gone, leaving me with endless thoughts and unforgivable guilt.
This doomed me to the second half of my life, no more joy, no more smiles.