Winter memories
Because of my work, I have been living in Chencun for more than two months. There are more people with the surname Chen in this village, and I heard the old people in the village say that Chencun was originally called Chencun, and it was only renamed Chencun after liberation, and it has been used since then. However, I think the person who changed the name of the village may be a person who has read many books and has his own story.
The first time I learned that I was assigned to work in Chencun by the company for half a year, the first thing I thought of when I looked at this place name was Qin Guan's "Tasha Xing Chenzhou Hostel". In particular, I feel deeply about the next word of this poem, "Send plum blossoms, fish pass rulers." Masonry into this hate has no weight. Chenjiang was fortunate to go around Chenshan Mountain, for whom xiaoxiang went down." Although it is not built into this hatred, sometimes the mood is even different. However, real life still gave me some comfort, after all, although I could not surround Chenshan Mountain, I did not go down xiaoxiang and went to Chencun.
The days of living in the countryside are different from those in the city, less lively and more lonely. When I first came to Chencun, I was really lonely, I was not familiar with the place of life, and there were many places where the living environment was not suitable. Here I deeply feel that man is indeed a contradiction. In the hustle and bustle of the city, I want to live a quiet life, I really come to the countryside but I don't want to be lively, I want the idyllic scenery of the countryside in the steel and concrete of the city, and I miss the convenience of urban life after coming to the countryside.
My work in Chencun is not complicated, but more monotonous and repetitive, although it may require some manual labor, but it is nothing compared to the hardships of farmers. This kind of tedious work was tedious even with life, when I was just getting up, washing my face, and looking in the mirror day after day. Even if I once thought that the rest of my life was like this, fortunately, human nature always drove me to find some pleasure in the plain as water life, even if I could only throw a few stones at the surface of life to have fun, but also to find a happy fish from the ripples and splashes of the circle.
Because it is winter, Chencun can no longer see the idyllic scenery of the countryside that can be seen everywhere in the spring and summer, and the birds and cicadas are singing, on the contrary, there is less green here than in the city, and the whole village is shrouded in the quiet atmosphere of winter. I have to say that there is a unique quiet in Chencun in winter, in such a quiet environment, you will not hear less, but will hear more, people's hearing is not weakened, but infinitely expanded. So, you will hear your own heartbeat in the middle of the winter night in Chencun, and then you will hear the sound of nature, you will hear the buds of the dog tail grass breaking through the frozen soil underground, you will hear the hibernating hedgehog turning over, you will hear the willow trees in the yard pulling out new branches, and you will hear the undercurrents surging under the thick ice of the nameless river north of the village. In short, you will hear or feel the pulse of all things and the throbbing of life in the silent night, fearful of the power of winter.
I now enjoy winter nights in Chencun. Winter nights are cold and clear. I like the feeling of coldness on winter nights, although this cold may penetrate deep into the bone marrow and into the heart, but it will make me sober after a day of work and deep fatigue, can make my sleepy brain rethink, let me re-recognize myself and think about the value and meaning of my existence. Winter nights in the countryside are undoubtedly clearer than in the city. Due to the obstruction of smog and tall buildings in the city, the moon can be seen is often blurred, and the stars are rarely seen, but the stars and moons can be seen unusually clearly in the winter night in the countryside. The ancients liked to drink wine and admire the moon in the autumn and summer nights, thinking that it was a great beauty, but I often wanted to burn a pot of hot wine on a winter night like Chencun, drink wine while admiring the moon, use hot wine to dispel the cold, and reward the clear and unusual stars and moon that other places and other seasons have not had, that should be a great pleasure, but perhaps because a person drinking too lonely, I did not implement this plan. Now, when I walked out of the door, I suddenly felt the cold wind, but in the face of the stars, what I thought of was a poem by Huang Jingren: It seems that this star is not last night, for whom the wind is exposed.
In the past few days, under the surface of the calm life in Chencun, you can already feel the undercurrent formed by a hidden bustle, and because it is close to the End of the Year, many people who go out to work and study have returned to their hometowns, injecting a lot of vitality into Chencun. Chencun is actually not far from the county seat, only 20 minutes by car, but once you drive away from the boundaries of the county town, looking at the bare fields on both sides of the road and the street trees that have lost their leaves and only branches, a lonely and desolate breath will come to your face, this breath will penetrate into your body and heart, making your body tremble with cold, even if the temperature of the air conditioner in the car is adjusted to a high level, it will not help, and you look back at the road and find that here and the county town are already two worlds. But these days in Chencun is not cold, it is still very hot. The cold air that fills the heavens and the earth in winter, the power of nature that despises all living things and withers all vitality, cannot stop the revival of popularity.
For me, my mood has also improved with the gradual prosperity of the village, and I am no longer as lonely as when I first came to Chencun. Sometimes I walk on the path of the village, watching the children chasing and playing after the holidays, listening to the adults shouting their children from time to time in the north and south of the world, and my mood will be very happy. Although I can't play with the children or participate in adult chats, I still feel happy.
After living in Chencun for more than two months, I can't help but feel that time has flown by. Although I am still four months away from the end of my work, I have somehow begun to miss the lost time, perhaps because I have now realized the value and significance of the seemingly dull days of the past. I have fully adapted to the life of Chencun, and when I first came to Chencun, the physical and psychological discomfort disappeared, and I felt very down-to-earth and satisfied in my usual work and life. The life in Chencun is indeed meaningful to me, and I can't say how the two months of living in Chencun have made me realize greatly, but these two months of life have really made me lose some of the burdens that I did not have to bear in my life, erased some desires, and changed my state of mind. I had read Su Shi's "The taste of the world is Qinghuan", and although I longed for the realm of Qinghuan, I was under the neon lights of the city, but my body could not reach it. Now, under the distant starlight of Chencun, I have more deeply experienced the taste of Su Shi's joy in the dullness.
I think that for the rest of my life, I will always miss this special time in Chencun, although the days are plain and the work is boring, but it is in these many dull and boring days and nights that I touch my soul, peel off those mottled and impure colors, and taste the taste of life.