Suddenly, I found that I had become the woman I hated the most: strong, like to point fingers, love to influence other people's behavior, hope that other people's every move will come according to their own wishes...
Usually I hate this kind of woman the most, because I have a lot of people around me, and I especially don't like it.
I didn't expect that in the end I would be such a person, and I didn't realize it.
It was because of my mother's arrival that I reacquainted myself.
During this time, my mother came to my house for the New Year, and I used to spend most of my time in school or work outside the home, and I didn't spend much time with her, so I didn't care too much.
After my mother came to my house this time, some of her behaviors and habits made me a little unaccustomed, for example: she was particularly afraid of water when washing vegetables, and often washed things twice. The dishes are not washed with running water, but only twice with water from the basin. I don't use chopsticks when I eat, and even if I put chopsticks in front of her, she won't use them...
Seeing these behaviors of hers, I will deliberately correct her, telling her to wash vegetables with flowing water, wash dishes with flowing water, use alkaline blisters when washing vegetables, and use male chopsticks when eating...
In short, when I see that my mother has not done what I think, I will correct her behavior. But in fact she didn't listen to me at all.
Because my mother is also a strong person, every time I have not finished speaking, she will scare me and scold me: You are poor and exquisite in a day! I've been eating like this for decades, and I'm still alive...
She was my mother, an old man, and I didn't dare to bother with her anymore, so I had to stop squeaking or watching her do things.
Think about if I say this to my husband, he will definitely do what I want, so in all these years, we have not had any contradictions about these things, and my mother is not, and she is not at all accustomed to my temper.
Suddenly found that my husband has been very tolerant of me over the years, what I ask him to do, he can generally satisfy me, tell him to go east, he generally will not go west.
In fact, I don't like my mother's strong behavior, but think about myself, why not?
I like to interfere with other people's behavior, I want other people's behavior to come according to my wishes, and if it does not meet my wishes, I will be uncomfortable, I will be uncomfortable.
On the outside, at work, I'm just a small role, I don't have the right to correct others, it's different at home, my world.
My husband once said a sentence: Fortunately, you did not become an official and a half-job in the unit, then your people really could not live.
It makes sense to think about it now.
Since I don't like other people's behavior to influence me, and I don't like others to interfere with me, why do I always want to control others? Everyone's lifestyle and habits are different after all.
I'm still ready to change my temper, although it's a little difficult. In the future, if you are not accustomed to seeing anything, you will look less, worry less, and influence other people's behavior less.
Isn't it good to live in a daze sometimes? It's hard to be confused in life.
