I am a post-80s, born in a small county with a small economy that is not very prosperous but very famous, I grew up proud of my city, I think many big cities are not as good as my hometown, because here is my beautiful childhood, but also the footprints I left on the road to growth!
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I was born in a not-so-wealthy family, I am the second eldest among my siblings, in addition to my parents, there is an older sister and a younger brother, which is also an ordinary family of five.
Parents rely on the stall to support our brothers and sisters, no day and night hard work can only earn a meager income, memory, in addition to the New Year can wear a new dress made by the mother, usually wear other people wear small clothes; in addition to the New Year can eat a good meal, the rest of the time will be eaten, some eat is good. I grew up in such a non-wealthy environment!
At home, I am still well treated, I am the only one in our family who has attended kindergarten, my sister and brother have not attended, directly to compulsory education, but I am the most unsuccessful person!
After arriving at the compulsory education stage, our family moved outside the city, and I also went to the first grade in the only primary school outside the city, my reaction was not too fast, my learning was not very good, but I worked hard, the grades were also very good, and I was a good baby in the eyes of the teacher!
After arriving at junior high school, perhaps due to the reasons for changing the environment, I began to get bored with school, the results plummeted, at this time my parents have been transferred from the stall to the shop, there is no time to manage my learning, my self-control ability is also very low, I changed from a well-behaved baby to a bad child, and finally failed to enter the ordinary high school, I could only choose the vocational high school that no one attended at that time, and finally I was admitted to a 2B university with art, which is also my college dream.
I thought that the road after going to college would be smooth, but I didn't expect that college was indeed the beginning of my loss.
College life I am also safe and stable to spend, after graduating from college, others through this piece of knocking brick to find their ideal job, I have not been able to find a suitable job, entrepreneurship has not been created, the examination editor has not been admitted, has been relying on others to work for a living, in the middle of staying at home for a period of rest, at that time I did not want to go back to my hometown, no face to see Jiangdong father and elder, college life let me become a high or low person.
Two years after graduation, there is a unit in our hometown to recruit public welfare posts, my parents let me go home, secretly registered for me, cheated me to come back to the exam, afraid that I stayed outside for a long time, the work did not find a good, the age is also older, the object is more difficult to find, I, the examination editor can not pass the examination, this nature of the position has been examined once, so I stayed in the unit for three years, these three years I also have my own home.
Three years later, the contract expired, I was laid off, in the face of the pressure of life, I began to start a business again, opened a small restaurant with a special character, the income was good, but it did not last long, for some reason, it finally closed.
At this time, my wife advised me to read books and continue to take the exam, that year I was admitted to the government to buy teachers, I thought I could sign a long-term contract, but it was still not satisfactory.
It is said that the young man does not work hard to be sad, at this time I really have a deep understanding, in so many years, I can be admitted to the compilation several times, but I failed to seize the opportunity, every time I think about it, the heart is extremely painful, I have led myself again and again to the road off the trajectory, in exchange for every night and night sleepless!
At this time, I am like a lost deer, a deer who has lost its way at the crossroads of life, anxious to find its own destination, I do not resent everyone, only resent myself for not working hard, the opportunity came when I failed to seize it, I feel that I am still young, there is an opportunity!
I can only pin my hopes on my children now, I hope they don't go down my path of regret, the old man's sad things I have endured enough alone, I don't want my children to face the same thing!
Everyone's destination is different, everyone's destination is the same, everyone's choice is their own choice, I don't want to be satisfied with the status quo, but can only be satisfied with the status quo, nearly 40 people, all I can do is to cultivate the next generation!
This is where I was born and raised, and it will also be the place where my leaves fall back to my roots, I don't want this land to abandon me, I want to find my own home!
October 25, 2021
Written for young people who are getting lost