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Text / Ye Zhiqiu
2021 is coming to an end and a new year is about to begin.
Teacher Xiaoqi said: "Finally use your flood power, write the review out, and give your 2021 a perfect ending."
Yes, no matter what kind of posture 2021 is, after all, we have come day by day, and those days of suffering and loss record sadness and helplessness. For life, we always have too many emotions. For the expectations in our hearts, we always have too many regrets. Maybe you are about to enter the year of the flower armor, always in this state of mind to remember the past, and start your own broken thoughts. Although gossip gains and losses, there is still light in the heart.
Looking back on 2021, I ask myself: How much have I lost this year? And how much did you get? Between gains and losses, how did I balance them to get to where I am today? At the beginning of the year, The teacher of Little Seven let us set up the flag, and how many did we complete? In the upcoming 2022, will I ask myself to make a vision again? I need to sort it out and give myself an explanation.
01
The N E
About Learning: Reading and Writing
At the beginning of 2021, I set 10 goals for myself with confidence, and when the end of the year is approaching, I can't help but look back on this year. The goals at the beginning of the year were not well accomplished, and some just started and did not follow.
Regarding reading, I set a goal at the beginning of the year to read 50 books this year.
Now that I think about it carefully, I studied with Xiaoqi Teacher for three seasons and read 12 books such as "Puppy Money and Money", "The Old Man and the Sea", "The Courage to Be Hated", "Vernacular History" and "Learning to Write". Coupled with his own customized book list, read 17 books such as "Why Mao Zedong", "7 Reading Lessons", "Micro Habits" and so on, if you add up the books that have not been read, the bits and pieces should add up to less than 40 books.
Some of these books are not very deeply read, just read them once, and do not take notes. Although the actual situation is far from their own set goals, you can think about your own experience this year, especially in the second half of the year, you are tired of doing business, tired of taking your little granddaughter, your physical condition is not very good, and you simply do not have time and energy to read books steadily. Most of my reading was done before July, and I have hardly read a complete book since October. Therefore, comparatively speaking, I am still slightly aware of my feet.
Regarding output, at the beginning of the year, I used to hope that this year's text output would reach 50,000+. Today, there are nearly 100,000 words of study cards, long texts and radio drafts combined. This should be a new breakthrough for yourself.
However, the reading learning in the last season did not keep up with the rhythm of the team, and the homework was completed very unsatisfactorily. Overall, however, there has been progress.
In 2021, it is not the best nor too bad, although some tigers and tails are not satisfactory, but they have tried their best. As long as you walk on the road of expectation, even if you are far away, you are not afraid.
02
T W O
About life: work and family
Some say that what is lost always comes back in another way. I am very happy in 2021 that my grandmother has been very successful.
Since March, I have almost become a full-time grandmother. This is the main reason why my study program is becoming increasingly difficult to complete. Especially after entering October, the mother fell ill and was forced to wean the baby. After weaning, the baby had a fever for three consecutive days, and I was alone with the child, and my father occasionally took a break from work to help. Even when I went to the hospital to see a doctor, I was alone with the baby, registering, queuing, doing nucleic acid tests, etc. The doctor who saw the doctor said that I took the child alone to see the doctor: it was really powerful! I felt like I was Superman. Looking at the families who take their babies to see a doctor, each child is accompanied by at least two people.
Such a fast-paced baby, let me physically and mentally exhausted, the physical condition is very bad, every day is dizzy and bloated, even blood pressure can not take care of self-testing, every day to take medicine is not time to take care of. Later, I took the baby back to my own home, after all, there is a grandfather at home, and I can be a helper. However, leaving the mother at night, it is difficult for the baby to fall asleep, most of the time I hold, pat, read nursery rhymes, tell stories, and fall asleep when I am exhausted. After a few days like this, I lost a full circle of weight and my mental state was even worse.
Fortunately, in July this year, I discussed with my husband and let him do the internal retreat, so that he could take care of the factory and the store, otherwise I felt that I would collapse.
In such a hectic life, I have very little time for in-depth study, especially after I stopped writing in July, and I have hardly read much, let alone written. In terms of study, I lost a lot of opportunities, and although I achieved some results, it was not very ideal.
I remember that Shen Fu said in the "Six Records of Floating Life": Life is hard, short and long, but it is not a matter of prosperity and withering, and it is difficult to gain and lose.
Perhaps, this is the truest side of life. In any case, I am glad that the baby, under my meticulous care, was weaned, gained weight, and grew taller. And the speech is becoming more and more clear, from simply saying one word, to now you can say two words and three words. Pay is always rewarded, the baby now sees the grandmother no one will let hug, even the mother can not, let the grandmother hug, and the grandmother is the closest.
The gift of life does not matter whether you gain or lose, as long as you try your best. Moreover, gain and loss is the norm of life, as long as you do not live up to the time, even if you move forward, it is the best time.
03
T H R E E
The inadequacies of the past year and the aspirations of the coming year
The year that is coming to an end is occasionally a little fortunate, but the vision set at the beginning of the year is still partially unrealized.
The book was not read as planned, and the self-customized book list only wrote a book review. Although praised by Xiaoqi teacher, the article was still launched on the major platforms of The Library Xiaoqi Webmaster, and I felt very ashamed of myself.
The purpose of reading is to better output, the books read can not be digested and absorbed, can not be fully utilized by themselves in life learning, that is, white reading. The plan to write a monthly book review at the beginning of the year has been wiped out, and there is no difference between reading without output and not reading at all. Reading has no output, which is my biggest regret this year.
I've spent almost all my time and energy on my baby over the past year, and in the coming year, that shouldn't change much. Therefore, I must strive to adjust my state, grasp the rhythm of study and life, and formulate reasonable and effective methods according to my actual situation every day. With a peaceful and positive attitude to face triviality, resolve anxiety, and have enough enthusiasm to make yourself comfortable coping with life.
I know that a netizen said: Some of the losses and gains in life are fate or cruel or warm arrangements. Thanks to the warm arrangement of life for me, I was treated gently in the gain and loss. Although I have regrets in my own growth process, witnessing every step of my baby's growth is my greatest luck and blessing.
Thank you for the other feelings that my granddaughter gave me in 2021: I don't have to deliberately maintain my weight, because weight loss has become inevitable, this is not something that can be obtained by barely exercising and spending money on fitness, which is my little luck; I don't have to plan to see the old woman, because as long as my husband's time allows, I can take the baby to see the old lady at any time. And when I got there, I could relax a little, someone to help me watch the kids, and someone to cook.
It was rare to see the old woman become a happy thing, which I had never dared to think about before; I didn't have to worry about my sleep. Because as long as the baby sleeps, I can sleep with it, only our mother and mother are at home for a lot of time and a long time, and I even changed my habit of not taking a nap for many years. For people of this age, getting enough sleep is a particularly happy thing. No wonder friends say that it was my granddaughter who helped me adjust my life.
Thank you to this lovely little life, I was with her, she was with me. It is she who makes me get the fullness of my heart in the loss, know how to cherish everything I once had, let me have good memories, have the desire to tell and express, and make me full of infinite expectations for 2022.
04
F O U R
I am planning my future in joy
In 2022, I told myself that following the learning of Xiaoqi teacher is a must, hugging and warming is always a catalyst for replenishing energy on the way forward, and Xiaoqi teacher's spur and encouragement from time to time, the small whip in her hand is always charming, and the positive energy in her body always has a deterrent effect on me.
Then there is your own reading plan, be sure to read some tools on time planning and writing guides. Celebrity biographies that used to be read were essential, novel books were also required (such books strive to read classics), and parent-child parenting books. In view of the boring and tedious writing when I write, I want to read some beautiful texts such as poetry and prose in the next year to fill the lack of my own language, so that my articles can be written smoothly and readable. I plan to read 50 books this year, and I hope that I can achieve this goal this year.
In the new year, I want to make a practical plan according to my actual situation, take into account all the problems encountered this year, combine the work situation of my parents and my own physical condition, and do what I can while I am full of confidence.
Fu Lei has said: Success or failure should be ignored as much as possible, and only do what they can and be ashamed.
I hope that in the new year, I can move forward freely in the whirlpool of life.
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