Summer vacation is over.
The holiday seems to be long, leisurely and relaxed.
The most common thing to do during the holidays is to squat in the yard and grass. The yard is very large, there is a lot of grass, and there is stubble after stubble, as if it is always endless.
So when the morning was still cool, I began to weed. Sometimes because The grass forgot to eat, forgot the time, and waited until the stomach was screaming and the skin burned, I realized that I had been crouching there for two or three hours, and then I felt that my ass also hurt, my fingers hurt, and even my fingernails were bald.
Sometimes I feel like I'm addicted to grass and can't help myself. The grass actually made me happy, forgetful, focused, and looked at the clean ground with a full sense of accomplishment. This is what many people call the flow state, but I didn't expect that I actually experienced it through grass.
When I was a child, I especially hated grass, and every time I followed my parents to work in the fields, I was tired to death. Especially after it rained and the grass grew wildly, we had to go to the field to collect grass. One hand of mud, one foot of mud, after the end of the adult education, not good to learn, in the future this land is you to plant. Really annoying, the grass is grass, don't nag or not, but dare to be angry, dare not speak, the ears can not be closed, had no choice but to listen.
More than twenty years later, I was happy to go to the grass alone. No one urged, no one chased me, no one chanted, only the rectangular yard and me crouching in the courtyard. If you want to do it, you can do it for a while, or lie down for a while. Perhaps what I hated when I was a child was not the grass, but the fact that I was subject to people and forced to be helpless.
When I was a child, I loved to watch TV and watch martial arts TV series. The most surprising thing is that a chivalrous guest named Luo Gufeng separated from the woman he loved, without a happy ending, and it is still fresh in my memory today. This TV series does not know what it is called now, only the two names of Luo Gufeng and Jinzhi County Lord are left in memory.
About the middle of a certain mid-autumn, perhaps later, Hebei TV broadcast Sherlock Holmes detective, but that time period is the time of our autumn harvest, and everyone in the family has to work, so Holmes's drama is watched in a mess. But remembering the Musgrave ritual case, it was fun to watch Holmes solve the puzzle step by step. There is also a Thor Bridge mystery case, seeing the key moment, my mother told me to work, so I always wanted to read it. But there was no Internet at that time, and it was really not easy to watch a TV series.
After going to work, I bought a set of Sherlock Holmes detective collections, which is the most book I have turned over, and the Thor Bridge mystery case has finally been solved. As a child, the image of Sherlock Holmes also penetrated my heart, except for Jeremy. Brett's Holmes, there was no second.
There are always some unfinished events in life that fascinate, and after the development of the network, Jeremy. Brett's Holmes watched it many times. Making up for an unfulfilled wish is equally fascinating. Just like the grass, this unfinished grass is about the grass that grows in the heart, and when it is completed with all its strength, the grass is uprooted and the space in the heart is enlarged.
I hardly read a book during my summer vacation, and I found that I was not interested in learning at all. At the beginning of the holiday, I was full of self-blame, and there were several sand tables with vague anxiety and uneasiness. It wasn't until I read a book called "Be Yourself or Make Cans" that I was able to enjoy my vacation. Haq said, what I am, I accept this self, this is myself, and at the same time I have a different look. When I tried to say this, my heart suddenly opened up. I like to read some books, and I want to have fun.
In the past, I couldn't accept myself who loved to play and enjoyed, as long as I spent time playing, I would think that my plaything was lost, and then I asked my husband and children according to this rule, so tired. I couldn't think straight, I was anxious and insomnia, and now I suddenly felt that I was so stupid at that time. Silly, can't think, love to drill the tip of the bull's horn is also myself, at the same time I have a different look, I accept. Step by step, slowly recognize yourself, don't worry, you will always find a different self. Motivated, lazy, laughing, crying, grumpy, kind, sunny, dark... They're all in my body.
Later, Santa Claus, who laid out the sand table and enjoyed the holiday leisurely, appeared, and then the giraffe that walked through the forest appeared, so I like the giraffe Wow! Really relaxed.
Every summer vacation I brush up on Hayao Miyazaki's animated films, either Hal's Moving Castle or Castle in the Sky. This year, brushed "The Wind Rises". I didn't want to brush it halfway through, which caused me a lot of psychological discomfort.
I admire the Horikoshi Jiro in the film, who continued to learn and experiment for the development of his own national science and technology, and finally broke through the technical difficulties and designed the Zero fighter. Well, although the film repeatedly emphasizes that Jiro Horigoshi's dream is to design a large civilian aircraft, in the end he designed and succeeded in a fighter aircraft. As soon as I thought of World War II and the Japanese invasion of China, the discomfort in my heart began to grow.
Many people say that "The Wind Rises" is anti-war, and the film also reflects Jiro Horigoe's dream of building a large civilian aircraft, and the design of fighter jets is a last resort, but there will be a thorn in the heart when watching the film. I felt that I was narrow-minded and did not see the deeper meaning of the film, but I was uncomfortable to defeat the above ideas and decided not to brush "The Wind Rises" in the future. Science knows no borders, but scientists have borders. Art has no borders, but the viewer has borders.
Then I also watched the movie "Brokeback Mountain", this time three brushes. When I watched it before, I felt very touched and sympathetic to this unbearable love, but now I still feel this way.
The front of the film shows the life of Jack and Enis in the brokeback mountain shepherd for a long time, the two rarely speak, but let people see different feelings, the actor's body language, demeanor is particularly good, a face shot can see Ennis's entanglement, a close-up shot can detect the affection in Jack's eyes. Then, one man and one horse slowly walked into the green distance, leaving behind a deep gaze. Another long-range shooting, a person lying on the hillside looking at a person who is shepherding sheep in the distance, no need to express love in words, love has flowed between the two people, overflowing in the Brokenback Mountain.
Feeling particularly advanced, the silent and green Brokeback Mountain, the two people who did not speak much, a group of sheep who ate grass quietly, if they lived like this, how good it would be, hidden in the mountains may not find the contemptuous eyes of others. But life goes on, and when we can't do anything about it, we can only choose to accept it.
Twenty years of love, the annual Covenant of Brokeback Mountain, Jack and Ennis were destined to be as desolate as the mountains.
Particularly to earn the audience's tears is Jack's death, and Ennis finds that the shirt the two once wore when they were herding sheep together was hung by Jack on a hanger. It was Jack's love, an expression of wanting to hug Ennis all the time.
Life is not easy, if you meet the person you love who also loves you, be brave.
Thanks to Director Ang Lee.
In addition to brushing up on the movies he has watched, he also chased TV dramas during the summer vacation. In fact, I don't like to watch TV series, too long, too wordy, but I still watched it.
Because the drama "You Are My Glory" paid attention to the Jade Rabbit Lunar Rover II, zhu Rong, and the three astronauts who traveled in space. An idol drama can actually be very positive. This drama also let me see that it is not easy for aerospace designers, repeated arguments, repeated experiments are very boring, work overtime, family can not take care of, relatives can not take care of and many other hardships. Astronauts and scientists have always been behind the glamorous life, and the particularity of the profession does not allow them to stand in the spotlight, but we should always have respect.
I also watched "Chen Qing Ling", which is quite sadistic for a drama, and will not brush it a second time, I am afraid to watch it being sent away. The original author is a strange person, most people in the play do not have a good childhood, either lose their parents or are discriminated against, this group of unfortunate people in childhood grow up to fight, you do not let go of me I do not let go of you.
Does an unhappy childhood affect the trajectory of life? Yes. Jin Guangyao and Xue Yang were quite perverted, but there was a Wei WuXian who was very different from them. The difference between the former two, who value only their own hatred, and the latter, who has a lifelong ambition to help the weak, is particularly thought-provoking. But if you think about it simply, you have to acknowledge the aura that the author gives to the protagonist.
"Chen QingLing" is a big drama, just because I watched the interpretation of a lot of handsome guys, I actually started running, I think it is too incredible. Wei WuXian and Lan Forgetful machine were too thin, and their waists were too thin, and I was stimulated.
As the show progressed, I actually had an idol in my forties. It's incredible.
Wei WuXian played xiao Zhan was too good-looking, and directly licked his face. Originally, I think that because I like a person because I look good, whether in reality or in the unreal, it is a very humiliating and superficial thing, in order to make myself less superficial, I will definitely carry out self-criticism and degrade myself to the point of no end. However, since acknowledging so many of myself that I am not good enough, the appearance association has become a big deal. I just like his bright eyes, what's so bad about that?
It's hard to like anything in my forties, it seems like I haven't really liked anything for a long time, and I probably prefer the feeling I like, which feels too alive and seems to be full of energy.
I hope that in ten years I can still watch my favorite cartoons, movies, idol dramas, just like I am still very young.
About that's it, the summer vacation is over, and I continue to struggle in my post. Come on, be diligent and earnest in beating workers.