Last night with the little girl video, she said she didn't want to grow up anymore. Because she felt that when she grew up, her mother's face would become a lot of wrinkles and she would grow old. I have always felt that I have not grown up, but since I have a child, I unconsciously still have a lot of changes in my heart, but she said so, how do I feel that I have just grown up, and I am already going to get old? Whether you like it or not, it is irreversible.
But when did I grow up? age? Or after some special moment?
I remember when I was young, I had to be accompanied everywhere I went; but now it is common to go shopping alone and eating and watching movies. Maybe growing up is not to cause trouble for others. The food that the other party does not want to eat, does not want to watch movies, and does not want to go out, just like fate, there is no need to force it. If you can't meet the same friend, then solve it yourself.
While pleasing yourself, it seems to have become a loosening of interpersonal relationships.
I don't know when to start, what I like no longer have to work hard to save from breakfast money, and I don't have to worry about my parents threatening to throw it out, and there is no teacher to educate and say that it will affect learning.
My thoughts are slowly growing day by day, such as buying that limited edition bag to reward myself, taking a trip to hang out, going to Hung Hom to see a superstar concert that I have loved for many years, or climbing up the mountain to shout out to my future self.
I used to think that these were all out of reach, and I couldn't understand why I had to. It was probably the satisfaction of wanting to dominate in its own way, but later it became a burden.
I've seen a narration like this: In this world, you get too many things, don't think that everything is what you deserve, or that everything you lose is more meaningful in your growth process than what you get.
Whether I refuse or be honest in my heart, at this moment I think in my heart that when I grow up, I can probably go out alone, I can take care of myself, I can decide to do anything on my own, I can take on various responsibilities...
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Today, I accidentally saw Xiao Manfa's circle of friends, and the picture recorded her own trip, in Iceland. The good guy ran far enough, but my mood was so happy that I cried deeply for her...
Around the time she was a teenager, she once went out in a car alone with her family, and as a result, she was in a car accident in a place where there was no shop in front of the village.
On the ramp, the whole car flipped over, Xiao Man was wearing a seat belt, and the person was not thrown out, but also because of the subversion of the car, the forehead was bruised, and she was the lightest injured in the whole car.
Suddenly, there is no extra money on the body, and it is not as popular as mobile phones now. Even though Xiao Man did not have an accident on the spot, people were already scared silly. It is said that when she climbed out of the car, she walked aimlessly for a long distance, and finally stopped when she had no strength; when she was looking for her, it was already the next day, and she was soaking wet under a tree, holding her legs and shivering, and her eyes were stunned.
Later, it was about a year before she recovered and went back to school. But basically, she was accompanied by her mother until college. The others did not find anything unusual, but they were particularly afraid of being alone, afraid of the dark.
At the moment, I will leave a message for her circle of friends, a hug emoji.
She quickly replied to me with a passage of these words, all these years have lived under the careful protection of my mother, and when she went out to cross the street with her mother last month, Xiao Man rushed forward with a needle in the seam until... A rough touch was touched at the back of her hand, and a pair of hands pulled her in a pinch.
Looking back, her mother smiled awkwardly: "There are many cars, I am afraid." "Well..." Xiao Man turned his head, pretended not to care, took his mother's hand, and walked carefully through the intersection, with tears in his eyes.
Across the street, I finally resisted the urge to cry and cry, and the front became clearer than ever.
Growing up, often done in an instant. It's like a montage in a movie, the first frame is crouched with a little girl, and the next frame when she stands up, it is a silent adult.
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Xiaoyi is my girlfriend who grew up together. She and her husband were classmates in college, and she deliberately picked the most honest and unlikely person in the class to play ambiguously.
Unexpectedly, from an unintentional game, a drama of unmarried pregnancy after getting on the boat and buying tickets was staged, and finally it was a graduation certificate in the left hand and a marriage certificate in the right hand.
A bunch of us sweated for her, always thinking that she was too reckless at that time, she had not grown up yet, and her job had not yet landed, so she got married and had a baby...
Later, because of the work, our group went their separate ways, and we rarely had the opportunity to get together over the years. It just so happened that some time ago, I sent my mother back to my hometown, and I asked Xiaoyi to come out to meet together. This is about 10 years old... When I was waiting for her in the café, I thought what kind of Xiaoyi I would meet later?
Only to see Xiao Yi slowly appear in front of me, completely fading between her hands and feet, like a pebble under the sun after the low tide, warm and appropriate; her eyes were still clear and transparent, and her smile was still lovely.
I think she lived the most beautiful life...
During the banquet, Xiao Yi said: "When I first got married, I was disappointed in the marriage, and I felt that this was looking for a husband, and it was clear that I was looking for a giant baby." During that time, I didn't find a suitable job, played games all night, ate and slept upside down. The baby is going to be born, he has not accompanied him to the obstetric examination once, he feels that the obstetric examination is a woman's business, there is no need to go to so many people...
Later, as the delivery date got closer and closer, I didn't have the energy to take care of him, so let's do it. If the child is still like this after giving birth, it is not too late to clean up.
But just after she gave birth, her husband seemed to have changed into a person. Before and after starting to run, Zhang Luo's baby's affairs carefully took care of Xiaoyi; he began to read books and examine civil servants, undertook all the affairs of the family, and did not let Xiaoyi worry about half a point.
Xiao Yi was puzzled, and after repeated questioning, her husband said that in the delivery room, because of the difficult birth for two days, Xiao Yi, who was dying after giving birth, and the moment he trembled and trembled and picked up the baby for the first time, it was as if a burden fell on his shoulders at once. It felt as if I had woken up from a dream... So people, they all grew up in an instant.
Maybe
Curiosity as a child will naturally open up
However, the fatigue of adults is a little drunk
Let the stress slip through your life even more
As an adult
We can already accept that we can't succeed
But I wish you success in growing up.