Keyword: desire
Subject: I've always wondered why I always like my boyfriend's buddy? I don't know how to say it, I am a girl who pursues perfection, and if my boyfriend is not as good as his friend, I will be very disappointed.
Love: Wu Dawei pulled me forward when I turned around, and I was suddenly pulled into his arms by him, "Kiss your forehead, gentle before going to bed!"
My first boyfriend was David Wu, and we met on the playground of the school's winter games. David Wu is a student in the Department of Journalism, and I am in the English Department.
Wu Dawei chased me painstakingly, from winter to spring, until the evening of March 20, 2008, when he sent me back to the dormitory. Under the dormitory, Wu Dawei pulled me forward when I turned around, and I was violently pulled into his arms, "Kiss your forehead, gentle before going to bed!" Wu Dawei blurted out a sentence that caught me off guard. The wind blew my long hair, the night was so beautiful, and an indescribable happiness flowed through my whole body like electricity.
At night, I lay in bed tossing and turning, Wu Dawei was quite good to me, he was 1 meter 74 tall, gentle personality, excellent academic performance. And through these days of interaction, I've found that there's a virtue in him that he never loses his temper. Before going to bed, I replied with a text message to Wu Dawei: "You will treat me well in the future."
The next day, walking on campus, Wu Dawei could pull the flowers and branches of me and smile at his classmates. I also gradually entered The Circle of Wu Dawei's life and became acquainted with his classmates and friends one by one. I also introduced the sisters around me to Wu Dawei. Going back and forth in each other's circle of life, we swim in it and enjoy it. Everyone thinks that we are the most suitable couple, I am beautiful, and Wu Dawei has a stability beyond age.
In September 2008, Before Going to intern at a newspaper in Guangzhou, Mr. Wu had dinner with a group of classmates. At the dinner table, I met several new friends of Wu Dawei, and Ah Jian, a student of the Chinese Department, made me feel refreshed. He is more talkative and handsome than David Wu. That night, sleeping with Wu Dawei, he talked several times about this friend that made me pay attention, "Ah Jian is the best of many brothers, who can speak the Tao. He wanted to go from Wen, but he had a business at home and wanted him to do business. ”
I asked Wu Dawei how his relationship was with Ah Jian, how I didn't know him before. Wu Dawei said: "He often did not go to school and went home to learn to do business. This time to guangzhou internship, Ah Jian funded me a sum of money, he is very generous to his brothers. ”
My heart suddenly had an indescribable taste, and it felt so awkward to lie in Wu Dawei's arms. I thought I was weird, Ah Jian... I seem to like you.
Change of Heart: Ah Jian walked beside me, and I took his arm inattentively—we were both taken aback. My voice changed
The day before Wu Dawei was going to Guangzhou, Ah Jian invited us to dinner. Wu Dawei said to the crowd at the dinner table: "During this time of temporary absence from Nanjing, if Tingting has any difficulties, don't stand idly by and watch!" Ah Jian smiled and said to me, "Sister-in-law, don't be afraid, David will come back when he goes." He told me that if he wanted to eat meat, he could also come to me. My heart was pounding, and I didn't dare to look at Ah Jian squarely.
SendIng Wu Dawei to Guangzhou, by Xuanwu Lake, Wu Dawei hugged me tightly and pointed to Nanjing City at Xuanwu Lake, "I didn't expect Nanjing to be so beautiful, the mountains and rivers, and we will settle down in this city in the future." Looking at the vast Xuanwu Lake, I said with red eyes, "Then why did you go to Guangzhou for internship?" Wu Dawei's eyes were also red: "Three months." To go, think about not being around without you. "I have a deep affection for David Wu, I rely on him, and he is happy to give me all his love.
Hao Dawei went to the field for internship. My side was suddenly empty. Even though we kept texting and calling every day, none of this soothed my loneliness. I'm used to having someone company.
At this time, I thought of Ah Jian. This is the person who always makes me vaguely think, and I didn't expect him to contact me. On September 20, 2008, two weeks after David Wu went to Guangzhou, Ah Jian texted me: "David asked me to ask you, if you want to go out and play, I can take you there." This text message leaves me without a master, why do I feel this way?
Ah Jian drove me from Xianlin to Xinjiekou. He first took me to Derky to see a movie, and it was already ten o'clock in the evening when he came out of the cinema. I pulled out my phone and saw a series of missed applications, and many text messages, all of which belonged to David Wu. I hurried to call him back, and David Wu asked me what I was doing. I said, I was watching a movie just now. "With whom?"" Ah Jian!"
Ah Jian walked beside me, surrounded by people, and I took his arm inattentively— we were both taken aback. My voice changed, and I said to Wu Dawei on the phone, "I'm going back, rest assured, I'll be at school in a minute." After hanging up the phone, Ah Jian asked me what I wanted to eat, he did not push me away, I held him, "Don't want to eat, go around." Ah Jian took me to the car, he closed the car door and sighed deeply, "Can't do this!" My mind was buzzing, remembering that David was now alone in Guangzhou, and it would be uncomfortable for him to know.
But I couldn't refuse Ah Jian, who drove aimlessly, with Mizuki Nianhua's "A Lifetime with You" on the car. "Because I dreamed that you left, I woke up from crying." This lyric may become the despair of Wu Dawei when he misses me in the future. I felt that I was doomed to be unable to turn back, and I would follow Ah Jianyuan away. I am also very sad, Wu Dawei is indeed inferior to Ah Jian, not because Ah Jian is richer. I like the elegance and wisdom that Ah Jian exudes, and his eyes sparkle.
In mid-October 2008, before talking to a customer about business, Ah Jian specifically asked me if I wanted to go alone. This time, I was surprised by Ah Jian's premature and mature business thinking, which is a kind of confidence that only successful men have. None of this is in Wu Dawei.
Guan Dawei worked very hard, but he was much inferior to Ah Jian. 1 December 2008,
Wu Dawei called me before returning to Nanjing from Guangzhou, and his happiness broke my heart, "I'm going back to the baby, I'm not far away, stay with you." ”
Ah Jian scolded himself as an asshole, and he refused to go to the train station to pick up his good friend Wu Dawei. My mood was complicated, at the train station, I wanted to cry when I saw Wu Dawei rushing over, he hugged me and kissed me madly, which was the deep love expressed by eager thoughts.
"I've changed my mind." The pitiful look of David Wu in front of me filled me with resentment towards myself. Why should I do this!
Split legs: I couldn't help but pour out my heartfelt feelings to Ah Jun, and Ah Jun saw that I was too sad and kept asking me: "What's wrong?" I said, "I like you!"
My second boyfriend is Ajian. In July 2009, we all graduated. Wu Dawei went to Guangzhou, and I think that when he left Nanjing, he would definitely look at Xuanwu Lake and remember the entanglement of the time when I sent me off in September 2008.
Ah Jian often sighed, he would always blame himself. But I slowly forgot the past, and since I got along with Ah Jian, I had to be single-minded towards him.
I went to work at Ajian's factory, and his parents liked me, which made me feel relieved. Ah Jian loves me more, even more intimate than Wu Dawei, and he will try to satisfy whatever I want to eat. Ah Jian would take me to a movie every week, and he would take me to KTV on time, and we both liked to sing. A Jianjia's factory is in Jiangning, I like to come to the city, when I want to sing, we will basically be in 1912.
On Christmas evening 2009, Ah Jian invited a few of his friends to sing at a KTV in 1912, and I followed suit. Between singing, I observed several friends of Ah Jian, a civil servant named Ajun sang particularly well, the key is my favorite old song "When Love Has Become a Thing of the Past" and "Will You Come Tonight"...
In the little bits and pieces of everyone's small talk, I knew that Ah Jun was a civil servant of a certain organ in the province, he was a graduate student of Fudan University, and he was very good from childhood to adulthood. Without any mental preparation, I compared Ah Jian and Ah Jun. The temperament of Ah Jun's body is more unique than that of Ah Jian, and the smell of that first member makes me experience the breath that Ah Jian does not have. I feel that there is such a loss, my boyfriend Fa Jian is not as good as Ah Jun
Soon, I found out about Ah Jun, who was born in 1982 and was still single. In the next contact, Ajun also showed a subtle good feeling for me.
On January 5, 2010, I sang together in the name of my birthday. Ah Jun rushed to a KTV private room in Hongwu Luo's house, pushed the door and looked at it, and I was trembling. I could only hide my intentions with this debauchery look, and Ajun was very clever, and he knew what I meant. I can't say who is taking the initiative, we sang "Like You", "Like You / Those eyes are more charming and laughing, I wish to be more charming / Gently stroke you / That cute face ..." I suddenly lost my voice, remembering the movie "Flying Love Novel" I watched with Ah Jian, Shu Qi listened to this song and the tearful shot made me moved, when I was choked up in Ah Jian's arms.
I couldn't help but pour out my heartfelt words to Ajun, and Ajun saw that I was too sad and kept asking me: "What's wrong?" I said, "I like you!" I was clearly aware that Ajun was trembling.
In fact, I am very reserved, good looking, once I take the initiative, there is no reason not to be liked by men. Now, Ajun is my third boyfriend, and he's even better than I thought he would be. Looking back, I felt that something was wrong, and I vaguely felt a kind of uneasiness, not knowing how far I could go with Ah Jun this time.
Editor's Note:
It is not surprising that men and women have attracted each other, and this has been the case for eternity. However, man Bi Jing is an animal with feelings, and its cleverness is not to attract and be attracted, but to be able to restrain itself in the face of attraction, otherwise, what is the difference with animals? The circle in which everyone lives is too small, and there must be many men who are better than Ah Jun, fortunately, they have no chance to know each other. Control the branches that grow in your heart, and life is truly beautiful.