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With you in my heart, no matter how far away, I will find you.
——Inscription To Youth
"At first"
Although my family is generally well-off, my family tried their best to send me abroad and realize my dream of studying abroad. Ben didn't plan to talk about a campus romance, he just wanted to finish his studies well. The university campus life is rich and colorful, and it also makes my life bright and colorful. Students from all fields, the convergence of ideas, indeed the growth of insight. I studied diligently and worked part-time. Like a busy gyroscope.
Classmates around me slowly came and went in pairs. I've long been used to being alone and used to their mantra "My boyfriend...". I just laughed and didn't say anything. Although he didn't care verbally, he still looked forward to it. One by one, they all took off the list one after another, and I never felt lonely before, because at least I still had friends around me. But now that they all have a small home, I always feel like a light bulb. Like duckweed, there is nothing to rely on. I can't help but wonder when you'll show up? What will it be like when we meet?
Time passes unhurriedly. There is no sadness, no joy.
"Meet"
I never thought I'd meet you like that. Unprepared, without warning. You suddenly broke into my world. But I didn't panic, just your appearance, breaking all my original intentions.
There is too much to know, why live in a corner. That was my first time "letting go of myself."
I was alone, a little lonely. I had always been a well-behaved woman, and at that moment I suddenly had a rebellion.
I came to the bar. My heart was pounding at breakneck speed. Like a child who has done something bad. Lest he be discovered. But I know that I am now so far away from home.
Bar, a glass of blue goblins. Under the shaking of the multicolored lights, the blue cup body, depressed people, like the lights in the dance hall, the paper drunk gold fans. Took a sip and seemed a little bitter. Maybe it's the mood that adds to the flavor.
Unconsciously, the cup is half seen. I've never drunk alcohol. It seems that the amount of alcohol seems to be good. Consciousness is clear, but also a little dizzy.
Slightly drunk, I looked around unconsciously. Looking at the people in the bar.
The shy teenager confessed loudly through alcohol, his cheeks flushed. The good news is that I got the girl's affirmation. The two tasted the taste of first love and kissed passionately.
In the corner, it seems to be breaking up. Girls are very persistent. But in love, no matter what, if you don't love, you don't love. The eyes are red and swollen, and the tears wet the placket. But there is no room for turning.
Between friends, fist-to-fist chatting is also comfortable.
Here, some people meet and reunite and talk to each other. Some people run to different things, like strangers.
There was no foresight, just a simple four-eyed facing each other. It's like switching fragments from past lives to this life. Two people who have never intersected before. It felt like déjà vu, and I hadn't seen it for a long time. Bar encounters, love at first sight. At that moment, I understood that your appearance was just right, the right time, the right place, and we met. You satisfy the fantasies of all young girls. Handsome looking. Clean sunny smell.
"Love"
There is no doubt that falling in love is the next chapter. Enthusiasm is like fire, like glue like lacquer.
Together on campus, we had sweet and fragrant dreams and lived a bright and happy life. I like dolls, but doll machines have settings and are not easy to obtain. However, you don't get tired of it, I don't know how much RMB was wasted, and learn the skills of grabbing dolls online.
I smiled and said, why don't you just buy me one. You say, it's not the same thing. Finally, the kung fu pays off, and the doll machine is at ease in your hands. Look at the envious eyes of others. We came home proudly with a full load.
Together, the morning dew appeared, snuggling up and waiting for the sunrise. As the sun sets, hug and watch time pass.
We've done everything together and traveled a lot of roads.
We hold hands, one way, that's a lifetime.
Let's walk around campus together.
We studied together in the library until late at night.
Emotions ferment violently. Two hearts, inseparable. Although we haven't been together for a long time, you know me better than I do. But in front of you, I am not a transparent glass either. It's a film film with colors. You know me, you have to be like this, what do you want in this life?
Friends often laugh at me, and now I can't do anything. But I know that behind this is their envious heart.
You worry about unhealthy eating in restaurants, where every day is a fragrant meal. You say, happiness fat, that word. What should be the point? I don't care, anyway, I'm happy.
You say that a woman's hair is the second face, many times, and the gentle voice of the hair dryer accompanies your careful movements. I fall asleep peacefully by your side.
You say that a woman's hand is like a third face. You never let me do laundry, mop the floor, do housework. Special cases, you always think through. Always ready. Share my little bit of discomfort. I am a princess worthy of the name.
"Turning Point"
Capricorn people are extremely susceptible to external influences. Maybe I'm no exception. Even if we are together all the time, even if everyone knows that we are boyfriend and girlfriend. But there is still no shortage of beautiful people who confess to you, doing you a lot of details that I have never paid for you. Slowly, I didn't seem to have confidence.
When one is sensitive and thoughtful. The broken thoughts of my friends around me made me a bit caught the wind and shadows. I know that you have always treated them with courtesy, but you are still soaked by inferiority. Obviously, you are your girlfriend, but you can watch people around and chase you. I didn't dare come forward.
There was a girl who was very persistent, almost crazy. She has also approached me many times and said I can't bring you happiness. Indeed, she was well-off. Whether it is life or future work and development, I can't wait.
That night, I got drunk because of sadness. The only male colleague volunteered to send me home. You called my phone many times, and no one answered. Because of worry, you stood in the doorway waiting for me to come home. Take me from him and you didn't say anything. But I can faintly feel a hint of your anger. Because you don't let me drink. You're a little jealous too, but you believe me. So I felt nothing. Just feeling heartache and doubt. I don't know why I drank so much wine.
I thought you would argue with me through this. I have reason to pretend to be angry with you and then offer to leave. But you know that I know that I am like this, how can you argue with me because of such a small matter, and how you can make me sad.
Sometimes, I deliberately bring it up, and you admit that you're a little jealous. But you said it was because you didn't take good care of me and reflected on what you didn't do well. Even if you are always with me, you still feel that you have neglected me at some point.
I really can't bear to let you go, but I don't want you to be unhappy.
Near graduation, you still treat me as I first saw; you worked hard just to give me a better life. It hurts to see you tired. Certain realities also made me see clearly. I really can't give you anything, and I can't help you with anything.
After thinking about it all night, I listened to her and let it go.
Because I love you, because I think you'll be happier without me. There was not much explanation, only a note: Sorry, I went back to China. I fell in love with someone else. Don't come to me either, precious.
I was thinking, you will definitely hate me and feel that I am heartless.
But you may be happier with others.
I don't care if I'm happy or not. It was you who taught me that love is giving.
Later, I heard that you returned to China to find me for a long time, and you were decadent for a long time. But at that time, I didn't have the courage to tell you, and I didn't have the courage to appear in front of you. You go back abroad to continue living. But you don't know, I'm there too, where we used to be.
Time passed slowly.
"Parting"
Staying in this city, every day, is a torment, every minute and every second feels very long.
I'm going forward, and there's you on the road ahead. I looked back, and there was still your shadow behind me. I don't know how to forget you.
Familiar roads have your little bits and pieces. I can't escape.
Traveling, even if you escape to a place where you are not there, your voice and smile will always appear in front of me. It hurts to breathe. Every minute and every second thinks of you, and every moment there is your shadow. But I don't want to go back to China. Because here's everything I'm nostalgic for. Even if it hurts, I'm going to stay here. This is the only place to have contact with you.
When I really miss you so much, I will go to where you work and watch you silently from a distance.
I didn't understand why those lovers who broke up were suffering and why they hurt themselves. But now it seems that everything has an answer. The heart hurts too much.
《Time》
Some time after that, certain people appeared. All nice people. But I haven't had a single one.
Once the sea was shipwrecked as water, except for the Wushan Mountain is not a cloud.
How can a hand that once held behind you be behind someone else? I haven't accepted anyone and haven't fallen in love again. I don't know if I'm waiting for you, I don't know if I have some kind of expectation, and I don't know if it's deep love, and it's hard to fall in love with someone else. No one can match you. I wanted to do it, and I tried to start a new relationship, but it was impossible after all.
Fast forward three years, and I'm still alone.
Sometimes I think about it. Now you, how, should be very happy. Everything I gave was worth it.
You're getting better and better. On the screen, I look at you, confident and calm. Watching you get better and better, I am proud of you. I stood, but I didn't dare to come near you, and I didn't dare to look for you.
Afraid to disturb your happiness.
Afraid to see you happy.
"The Ending"
We still meet, and the heart is like a constant thread, pulling us, unconsciously walking to the same place. The moment you saw me, tears welled up your face. You say that we didn't have an agreement before: If you can't find me, I will try to stand in the most prominent position in the world, waiting for you to come to me. But why didn't you come to me? I've been waiting for you. Even if I stand where you can see, you don't come to me. Do you know how long I've been waiting for you?
The moment you finished, you hugged me tightly. Lest I disappear at once.
I fell.
I know that words are no longer needed at this moment, and explanations are no longer needed in this life.
We love, we know.
Spanning half the world, going back and forth a thousand times, thankfully we can meet again.