My husband and I have been married for several years, have two children, and seem to be very happy, but we have been separated...

1

I climbed into bed trembling

A lifetime of B ultrasound probe back, "ovulation, arrange a room today"

I suddenly felt a sense of relief, and today's gynecological examination was finally over.

When wearing pants, I couldn't help but secretly blame Xu Yue in my heart, it was all his problem. I put on my pants and left the clinic, and as soon as I got to the door, I heard someone calling my name. I looked up and it turned out to be my colleague Zuo Fei. She looked me up and down with deep meaning, focused her eyes on my lower abdomen, and gleefully asked the question I was most afraid of: "Great, you are finally pregnant?" ”

"No," I whispered, fleeing and leaving the hospital

Zuo Fei and my mother-in-law's family live in the same neighborhood, and they have long been the mother of a son and a daughter. In the unit, she couldn't stop showing affection, saying how good her husband and wife's feelings were, and both children were accidentally conceived. The words she often hangs on her lips are: "You don't know how anxious our boss is, I was too pregnant to take wedding photos." The second oldest, before I could ease up, I accidentally came again. So, I'm just a strange woman with only pregnancy photos and no wedding photos." On her desk, there was a crystal table with a picture of their family of four. People come and go, and inevitably they have to look at it twice.

I met at the door of the gynecological department today, and I don't know what she will say when she sees my mother-in-law

I looked at the time, and it was almost time for dinner. I simply packed two bowls of beef powder and told the clerk: "Don't put coriander in one of the bowls." ”

Xu Yue was at home. He looked at me expectantly, "What did the doctor say?" ”

I repeated the doctor's words.

Xu Yue said, "Then we follow the doctor's advice?" ”

I opened the box of beef powder, and there were two bowls of coriander, and I scolded and picked them out one by one.

I hate the taste of coriander

In the evening, Xu Yue hugged me, and I responded seriously. But as usual

Failed again today.

Looking at him, who was already paralyzed on the bed, my heart was desolate.

We quickly cleared the battlefield, Xu Yue was very frustrated, took a deep breath, and lay down beside me. I consoled: "In fact, as long as one bullet succeeds, we have hope." ”

Xu Yue patted my head: "Yes, go to sleep."

In fact, even I didn't believe this, I couldn't help but think of my conjugal life with Xu Yue, and I was really sorry.

Xu Yue is my fourth boyfriend. Whenever the previous three boyfriends stayed in the same room with me, I didn't let them succeed. When in love, Xu Yue also couldn't help but hint at me, but he would immediately move his body and apologize, saying that everything would be better left until marriage.

At the time, I felt like he was the most gentlemanly man I'd ever met. That was a big reason I chose to marry him, and now that I think about it, it's a great irony.

2

On the weekend, I followed Xu Yue to his parents' house for dinner. After eating, I went to wash the dishes, and my mother-in-law was doing housework next to me, and said casually: "Zuo Fei said that she saw you at the entrance of the gynecology department of the hospital." ”

I know the subtext of my mother-in-law's intention to ask if I am pregnant. In recent years, she has been talking to me, and the topic has been swirling around in pregnancy. How can I tell her that your son can't hold on to the prelude to a song at all, how can I possibly be pregnant. But I still wanted to defend Xu Yue, so I said, "Mom, we're working hard." ”

The mother-in-law's tone was not very happy: "You have worked hard enough, does this matter need to be so hard?" ”

"Your son is not talented, and he really needs to work hard", I wanted to throw this in her face, but I thought about it and held back.

The mother-in-law muttered: "You and Zuo Fei are married at the same time, she has given birth to the second marriage, and your pregnancy is far away, and I don't know when I can hold my grandson." ”

I didn't answer the phone and silently packed the dishes into the disinfection cabinet.

When we got home, Xu Yue lay down next to me and soon fell asleep. I looked at his calm sleeping face, and silently sighed in my heart, it turned out that the passages I had seen on the Internet before were true, a man and a woman could really do it when they got married, and when ta lay next to you, you could do it effortlessly and take ta as your dearest brother.

Late at night, I turned over and couldn't sleep, and my mother-in-law's words echoed in my ears, "When you graduated from college, Xu Yue's father and I spent a lot of effort, using the human feelings we have accumulated for decades to arrange your current job, the purpose is to hope that you can relax, get pregnant and give birth to a child quickly, and as a result, four years have passed, or there is no change at all, hey..."

The thought of my mother-in-law's sigh made my heart panic. I suddenly felt that I desperately needed a cup of milk tea to comfort my body and mind, so I got up and sat in the dining room under the bright light to order takeout. The milk tea arrived quickly, and I broke the opening in the lid and tore open the outer packaging of the straw. When I took it apart, I found that the straw was paper, and I had a bout of irritation for no reason, so I threw the straw in the trash.

I once saw a sentence on the Internet: "The paper straw in the milk tea shop is particularly anti-human, it can't be inserted, it's not good to suck, and it will soften up in the middle of the way - like..." I sighed, directly opened the lid and drank dry milk tea.

I tossed and turned all night, picked up my phone at dawn, opened a music app, clicked on a picture called "Shakespeare", and sent a private message: "I miss you." ”

As soon as dawn came, I received a reply: "Viola, I miss you too." "Viola is Shakespeare's lover in the movie Shakespeare's Love Story, and is a married woman.

Shakespeare's real name is Liu Ya, I hooked up with netizens for several months, and we met under the same song. The song was a niche jazz song, and then many people left messages saying they wanted to open a tavern and put the song on later. I shook a wit and left a message saying when your tavern would open. Liu Ya replied to me that he was opening a tavern and was welcome to play.

That's how we got along. Chatting on the Internet was very happy, so I added WeChat. And then we were surprised to find that we were all in Carey.

This is a very small city! We met at a café, and when we met, I learned that he didn't have any taverns, and he was shaking his wit.

The first time Liu Ya saw me, I obviously felt his eyes light up.

Liu Ya is my favorite type, with wide shoulders, small and long legs, eyes with single eyelids, and is very energetic when looking at people. The first time I saw him, I felt familiar. When I walked out of the café, I suddenly remembered why he made me feel familiar, wasn't he the man in the photo of Zuo Fei's table crystal setting, her husband, the father of two children? The ghost sent God to the ground, and I didn't tell him I knew Zofi. He asked me what unit I was in, and I said I worked in a small company and it wasn't worth mentioning. He believed.

I confess that our musical tastes are similar, and I have a good feeling for him. Maybe both of us are a little careful, so for the sake of safety, although we have WeChat, since we met, we tacitly still use the music app to send messages to each other. In fact, every time we met, we didn't do anything, only once, Liu Ya quietly took my hand, my heart beat like thunder, but soon we withdrew our hands from each other.

After I sent the "I miss you," I had a hunch that my relationship with him was about to take a big leap forward.

3

Liu Ya said that in the ancient town of Kaili Xiasi, there is a farm along the river where the pheasants are particularly delicious, we can taste it, and we can also play in the farm as a relaxation. So on the weekend, I told Xu Yue that I hadn't seen a few girlfriends for a long time. Get together today. Xu Yue asked me where I was, and I hesitated for a moment, saying that I was in Guomao, shopping and drinking. In order to dispel Xu Yue's doubts, I also asked him to drive me to Guomao.

After twenty minutes of hanging around in Guomao and taking a few selfies, I went out through the other door and got into Liu Ya's car.

Of course, I knew that this time I went to the farm with Liu Ya to play because I was drunk and did not want to drink. The farm we went to, there were no young people that day. There was only a group of elderly old men and women playing mahjong in the pavilion, singing and dancing. We relaxed our minds and walked hand in hand around the farm. After eating, I turned to a small attic by the river, which turned out to be an ethnic-style hotel. Liu Ya said to me: "After eating, my head hurts a little, and I will drive back later, and I want to take a rest." You've been tired all morning, do you want to take a break too? ”

I understood what he meant by that, and when I decided to go out with him, I had a premonition of what might happen. Entering the room, I opened the window, and the Qingshui River under the window was turquoise and turquoise, like a green ribbon. Liu Ya wrapped his arms around me from behind and gently exhaled in my ear: "You know what? You're even prettier than I thought. ”

Just as Qianjun was about to strike, Liu Ya suddenly said: "Wait a minute" It turned out that he took out a small raincoat.

After the end, Liu Ya also checked whether he had leaked water.

I thought it was funny to myself, and I couldn't see that he was so careful.

When he was done, he put his arms around me and said, "Miscarriage is too painful for a woman, and I don't want you to suffer this." My heart warmed and I offered to give him a kiss.

Soon we went back, and Liu Ya sent me to a place two stops away from the neighborhood where I lived to get off. No way, Carey is really too small, let me off at the door of the community, afraid of encountering acquaintances. I looked over and over on the side of the road to make sure no acquaintances got out of the car.

The more I went in the direction of home, the stronger the guilt welled up in my heart. Entering the house, the curtains in the living room were drawn dead, and I thought no one was there. When I got closer, I found xu Yue sitting on the sofa, his face blue: "Where did you go today?" ”

I felt a little weak in my heart, and untied the headband on my head: "Guomao, I am tired after a day of shopping." ”

"Is it really Guomao?" Xu Yue's voice was serious

I let out an "hmm."

Xu Yue slammed the cushion on the sofa to the ground, "How long are you going to lie to me?!"

I kept my composure, opened the photo album, opened the morning selfie at Guomao to show him, and turned over the photos of the previous party with my girlfriend. On the way home, I had copied the previous photo, so that when I opened it, it appeared in the location of the latest photo. So in terms of time display, the time display of these photos is also today.

Xu Yue turned over one by one, and the corners of his mouth sneered: "It's OKAY, but it's not enough." ”

I was trying to tell when he opened his phone album and showed me a few screenshots. My head "banged", and the photos in the screenshot clearly showed that from ten o'clock this morning to three o'clock in the afternoon I was in the ancient town of Kaili Xiasi, and from one o'clock to three o'clock in the afternoon I was in a hotel.

Xu Yue sneered, "I found your whereabouts using the search app that came with the apple, do you have anything to explain?" ”

I forget where I've seen people, who never want to believe that their partner would betray themselves. As long as you are not disheveled and broken in bed, don't admit it. His voice is louder, and my voice is louder.

"You just have a ghost in your heart, and you will think of me badly!" After so many years of marriage, when have I ever enjoyed the pleasures that other women enjoy. Yes, I did go to the ancient town for a day today, but instead of doing something unseemly, I was too depressed to relax! I have a fire in my heart, and you can't put it out!" Don't you know that you have a problem yourself? I didn't say go around Guomao to maintain your goddamn self-esteem, not to say that I was depressed and had to look at nature to relax. Xu Yue, you really made me chill, I didn't expect that I would even go to the weekend to relax, you have to think of me to the worst side! Speaking of this, my tears fell at the right time.

This remark stunned Xu Yue, and he opened his mouth: "What is the matter with staying in a hotel?" ”

"I can't take a break when I'm tired?" I saw that he had a look of shame on his face, and added a few words, "Next time you doubt me, don't you just go directly to my WeChat video?" Why guess for yourself?

Xu Yue thought about it and came over to hug me: "I'm sorry, Yan Yan, I really didn't do a good job." In the future, you need to go to the countryside to relax, and you must come with me. ”

I promised to come down, hugged him back, and finally breathed a sigh of relief. This time is really a little dangerous, in the era of smart phones, it is too difficult to derail without being discovered, it is simply difficult to go to the sky.

4

Zuo Fei showed love in the office again: "On the wedding anniversary, my husband asked me what I wanted, and I said that I was an old husband and wife, I didn't want anything, just love me and hurt my baby." He actually bought me a batch of Juliko Rose body lotion, saying that he saw that my hand was a little cracked and asked me to wipe my hands with body milk. What body lotion I use to wipe my hands, just use hand cream, the aesthetic and concept of straight men are really terrible..." She said as she pressed the body lotion with her hand and smeared it as a hand cream.

The roses smelled so heavy that it was so sweet and greasy that I thought his performance was disgusting.

Only after that day, I found that I often missed Liu Ya, his love words, his breathing, the smell of his body... Zhang Ailing wrote in "Color Ring" that "the road to a woman's heart passes through the yin way" Until after marriage, I really understood the meaning of her words. In fact, Liu Ya has asked me out several times in the music app, and I especially want to go to the appointment, and I just want to be haunted. But I also have concerns, I am afraid of being caught - the main question is where to go safely?

The city of Carey is too small, acquaintances are like spider webs, and everyone is more or less related. Maybe I just opened a room in a hotel in the city with my name, and Xu Yue called and asked a few acquaintances who worked in a certain unit to know which hotel and which room I was in. It is even more impossible to take time to go to Liu Ya's house, he lives in the same neighborhood as my mother-in-law, and if I meet my mother-in-law on the way, it is even more unclear. It is even more impossible to come to my home and Xu Yue's home, the cameras in our community are dense, and even the corridors are full of cameras, I dare not take this risk. However, both physically and psychologically, I miss Liu Ya. I oscillate between going out and not going out.

Before I could make a decision, my mother-in-law came to the door. She called me into the kitchen alone, closed the door, and asked me what I was doing in the ancient town on a certain day in a certain month of a certain year. I was playing drums in my heart, could it be that the old man and old lady who played mahjong that I saw in the farm that day had a mother-in-law?

My mother-in-law said: "Several of my friends told me that they were going to the ancient town to play, and they saw a woman who looked like you pulling and pulling with a man. Where were you that day, and what the hell was going on?! Of course, I remember what my mother-in-law said about the day I found out, but I didn't admit it in front of Xu Yue, and how could I admit it in front of my mother-in-law.

So I denied it.

My mother-in-law took the photo of me and Liu Ya holding hands from my mobile phone, "I didn't believe it at first, but people's photos were taken, don't tell me that the person inside is not you!" ”

When I looked at it, the photo was actually a bit mushy, and I continued to stiffen my mouth, "So wronged!" This person looks a bit like me at best, how can you be sure that it is me, your friend must have seen it wrong! ”