Li Zhong received an order to report to the Education Bureau, and his heart was mixed with mixed feelings and mixed feelings. The good news is that I have finally got rid of the bitter place of rural schools and can go to the county seat, especially to work in the education bureau, which has both conditions and development direction. The worry is that in the end, he did not convince his parents, and there was no way to surrender in the marriage matter. He was about to be separated from the lover who had been in love for three years, and he did not know how to face this cruel reality, let alone how to explain it to Wang Xiaomei.
This night, his thoughts and the intermittent frog sounds made friends.
In the early morning, Wang Xiaomei sent Li Zhong to take a shuttle. No one spoke along the way. They bear the pain of parting with each other.
Before getting into the car, Li Zhong shoved a letter into Wang Xiaomei's hand, and with tears in his eyes, he said: "Xiaomei, I will help you, precious!" "After saying that, I got into the car like a deserter and never dared to look back.
Wang Xiaomei looked at the bus that was gradually moving away, and repeatedly weighed the words that Li Zhong dropped when he got on the bus. "I'll help you". Ask yourself: What can I do? Is it to convince your parents to accept me? How is that possible? What else can you do to help me? Li Zhong is gone, this negative person, he will be gone forever. What he left behind was not a simple word, but their feelings for more than three years. The friendship of getting along day and night, the promise of the mountain and the sea, was thrown away, and it was thrown silently. The nameless pain, like a knife stirring, churned in her heart, and she wanted to scream, but she couldn't shout; she wanted to cry, she couldn't cry; she wanted to hate, somehow, she couldn't hate at all.
The leaves of the west wind snapped, and Xiaomei's heart was shattered. In the laughter of the morning wind, she stood there quietly, looking at the thick clouds rolling in the sky, and the water in her eyes mixed with the water in the clouds gradually expanded, expanded, and expanded again.
The car disappeared, it burrowed mercilessly into the distant mountains, out of sight, out of sight again! Mentally exhausted, Wang Xiaomei leaned against a large tree, closed her eyes, and did not know how long she had been staying, let alone how to return to the dormitory. This girl, who was not good at words, held her head in both hands, lay on the table, and did not say a word, letting the tears flow on the table.
"Gone?" Shi Yan, who was sleeping with him, asked in a low voice.
XiaoMei nodded.
Shi Yan knew the pain in her heart and felt sorry for her. But what's not to say? She knew that any comfort at this time would be useless and would only increase her pain. Just let her be quiet! Leave her alone for a while, even if it's a cry! Only by releasing the pain in the heart will it be better. Shi Yan gently patted Wang Xiaomei's shoulder and silently left the bedroom and went to the office.
At this time, the black clouds in the western sky could no longer control themselves, and after the fierce wind, lightning broke through the entire ring, and with a loud noise, the doors and windows of the earthquake trembled. It was a thunderous, deafening, and terrifying. A large poplar tree behind the school room, somehow provoked the sacred, was split in half from top to bottom. Subsequently, the bean-sized water column embraced each other, the whole ring, rain pouring fog around, a milky white, the earth was covered with water, instantly into a river.
Wang Xiaomei couldn't hold back any longer, although she didn't dare to howl loudly, but the tears in her eyes were like a race against the rain in the courtyard, falling down her cheeks. She did not hate Li Zhong, nor did she blame the world, only blamed her own incompetence, although she had long expected this consequence, but she could not control herself, and she was forced to drill into the vortex of love, powerless to extricate herself. Ren Pain opened his teeth and claws in his heart, unable to calm down, only to slowly drown it with tears!
First love is like that, it makes people desperate and reckless. It is so simple, so selfless, so simple. It is like a small child, pure without a trace of impurity.
Love, overwhelmed Wang Xiaomei's mind, love, made her lose her way. That's why we're here today. She loves Li Zhong too much, such an ending, in addition to her pain, there is also something that she can never forget, that scene is alive, love picture:
"Teacher Xiaomei, let's go out for a walk this week, right?"
Wang Xiaomei has never been alone with a boy. Teacher Li Zhong, who was not familiar with her today, suddenly invited her, and she was overwhelmed for a moment. She looked at Li Zhong, slender figure, well-dressed. Although not handsome, but not annoying. The eyes are like arrows, but they also reveal the wisdom and ability of men. She hesitated and agreed out of courtesy.
"All right!" Wang Xiaomei, with the characteristic restraint of a young girl, followed Li Zhong out of the campus.
As soon as Li Zhongshi graduated from college, he was assigned to this primary school, and when he first saw Wang Xiaomei, he was intoxicated. The girl's beautiful face, long hair, a smile and a smile are even more evocative. The first meeting was deeply imprinted in the Lee Center. After a while, I learned that she was not only beautiful, but also able to sing and dance, treat people and things, and be generous. Unfortunately, it is a private teacher.
Identity, in those days, was crucial for young people who talked about marriage, and it was related to the life and future of a lifetime. But Li Zhong did not think so, he wanted to use his father's position as deputy county magistrate to change all this. So, I invited Xiaomei this week.
The two walked along the field path towards the Big Stone Mountain. At this time, it was May, and the wheat in the field was nearing ripening. Heavy ears of wheat hunched their heads. Although the sun rises three times, the dew on the grass tip is still crystal clear. Trumpet flowers, bright colors, fragrant smell. Xiaomei picked a few flowers and put them on the side of her nose, while sniffing the fragrance of flowers, while listening to Li Zhong's endless small talk, she was secretly amazed by Li Zhong's profound knowledge, although she did not speak, but a leisurely and raw pleasure slowly spread in her heart. She was enchanted by the wonderful feelings unique to young men and women, and she enjoyed it, and her evaluation of her companions gradually warmed up. While she was in reverie, a fox suddenly jumped out of the wheat field, and her heart was shocked, and she suddenly hugged Li Zhong's arm. Li Zhong took advantage of the situation to take her in his arms.
"Don't be afraid, it's a fox." Li Zhong said.
At this time, Wang Xiaomei knew that she was out of shape, and her face was flushed with shame. Hurriedly broke out of Li Zhong's arms, glanced at him, and ran forward with a smile.
They went up the Big Rock Mountain.
"Look, mushrooms!"
Wang Xiaomei suddenly saw a row of small white mushrooms in the grass appear in front of him like a column of soldiers. Hurriedly ran to pick it.
"That mushroom can't be eaten, it's poisonous!" Li Zhong said.
"You can't see how you know you can't eat it?" Xiao Mei looked at Li Zhong incomprehensibly.
"You can tell by looking at the length. If you don't believe it, you can take it off and see that it is Bai Lizi. My grandfather was from the countryside, and I grew up at my grandfather's house, often going up the mountain with my grandfather to pick mushrooms. ”
Wang Xiaomei took a look at it, and sure enough, it was white.
"Edible wild mushrooms are red and black. They don't look like rows, they are as few as one or two, and more are in a circle. Very recognizable. ”
"Oh—" XiaoMei thought thoughtfully.
After turning around for about two hours, they walked over to several large rocks, found real mushrooms, and picked a large bag.
Back, chef Li Zhong, they had an unforgettable mushroom meal together...
After that day, they were often together, and Xiaomei and Li Zhong, in the process of pastime, slowly developed a feeling that they could not leave and could not be left.
Over time, love is like honey, the little plum sticky spirit, she immersed in this ocean of love can not extricate herself, leisure time, under the willow tree, next to the small pool naturally become their happy harbor. The mind has also reached a tacit understanding, and a look, or even a subtle movement that no one else can perceive, is the messenger of their rendezvous.
It was another clear summer evening, and the full moon that had just risen was like a mirror, hiding the surrounding stars behind, and the strange fragrance of flowers and plants was particularly rich with the moist and fresh air. Xiaomei and Li Zhong talked by Swan Lake, and they talked about the love of "Paul" and "Donglia" from "Wedding on the Execution Ground", and then talked about "Baoyu" and "Lin Daiyu". Of course, it's more about talking about real life. On this day, Li Zhong poured out his love to Xiaomei and hugged her in his arms, at the same time, Shan Menghai swore: "Xiaomei, I love you, I will give you happiness with the sincerity of my life." ”
XiaoMei did not break free, while enjoying the warm lips, shed tears of happiness in front of the stars and moons. However, she was not stupid, and murmured: "You are a formal teacher, I am just a private person, will your family agree?" ”
"My parents are people with status, and they will not be conservative, and our love will definitely touch them, and you put a hundred hearts on this." If I have a chance, I will ask my father to get you a correction table, and we will not be equal! You tell me? Li Zhong pointed his finger at the tip of Xiaomei's nose.
Xiaomei nodded, without words. This happy little bird hugged Li Zhong's arms tightly and did not move, enjoying the sweetness of love.
Before the night had receded, dogs barked and people's noises were heard from time to time in the village. The frogs in the pond were also whispering, and the moon was still so cute, only the stars flashed with jealous eyes, as if to take pictures of the young couple.
That night, she couldn't sleep soundly.
… …
Today, she finally woke up from a dream, and in her grief, she found the letter that Li Zhong had left for her, and she wanted to see what kind of explanation Li Zhong had given her.
May:
I didn't dare to say it to you, and I didn't have the face to say it to you, and I didn't do everything I could to do both of us, and after several efforts, I finally failed to convince my parents. It is our parents who have broken us up, no, it is the secular world that has broken us apart, and the secular prejudices that have been inherited for thousands of years have beaten us to the ground. I have no wisdom or ability to lead you through this barrier. I know, I mean thousands of sorry, it is difficult to let go of your feelings, and it is not easy to erase the wounds in your heart. Why shouldn't I?
Think back to the minutes and seconds we are together, how much poetry is filled, and how big a picture can be depicted? Speaking of conscience, this is all sincere, without a hint of hypocrisy. Remember that poem I gave you? Here I would like to revisit it.
I want to become a colorful butterfly and land on your shoulders.
I want to become a ray of sunshine shining on you.
I want to turn into a breeze,
Steal your unique fragrance.
I want to turn into a drop of thick blood,
Live in the atrium of your heart forever.
You are the sun in my heart,
Give me endless warmth and light.
You are the temple of my love,
It contains lingering thoughts and sorrows.
When I was in pain,
. I hope you are by my side.
When I'm happy,
Hope you too are like me.
I often play with you in my sleep.
pity
Life, minus restless delusions.
We are all teachers,
How can you be like everyone else?
May you and my love drum,
Always ringing in the heart.
Xiaomei, please forgive me! Forgive me for not keeping our promise. Forgive me for breaking your oath of the mountains and the sea. Fortunately, I didn't hurt you too much, you are still so perfect, so intact. With tears in my eyes and with sorrow, I pray for you every day, praying that you can find a good place to belong.
Xiaomei, forget me! I don't deserve your nostalgia, there are so many good men in the world, and finding your true belonging also makes me feel less guilty.
Negative lover Li Zhong said goodbye
✘Year✘Month✘
Wang Xiaomei could not cry, fell from the table to the bed, and covered with a quilt...
The rain is still falling, and it is getting heavier and heavier. The impure mud and sand have been washed away, and worldly prejudices are still high.
The class bell rang, Wang Xiaomei wiped the tear marks, carried the textbook, propped up the umbrella and walked towards the classroom, the pace was still so strong, the wind fluttered hair to throw away the pain, fell out of the firm belief.
About the Author
Wang Zhenying, screen name: Xiao Boat, retired teacher, likes literary creation, has published many articles, poems and educational papers in newspapers, magazines, and media.