In the past few years, I have experienced the death of several relatives, grandfathers, uncles, grandmothers, grandmothers... Every time it was painful, and I didn't know how to express that pain. When Grandpa went to be cremated, my mother put her arms around me and cried, "I don't have a father later", which instantly made me cry until I broke down, yes, my mother has no father. When my uncle died, I saw my sister and brother's crying red eyes, and I couldn't even say words of comfort, so I could only cry with them. Every time I face the death of a loved one, I cry until I can't do it.
The first time I faced the death of my relatives was in my junior year, my grandfather got lung cancer, suffered a lot of sins, and finally left, at that time I felt like crying was suffocating, and I couldn't accept the reality of my grandfather leaving. On the way to the cremation, the tears had not dried, thinking that I would never see Grandpa again, I could not breathe in heartache, I saw the last side of Grandpa before cremation, and prostrated my grandfather three times in front of the coffin. After Grandpa left for a long time, he did not want to accept the facts, always felt that his old man was still there, and always felt that he had not yet had time to filial piety to him...
My friend was happy on her wedding day, and my girlfriend told me something on the way to send her, which made me collapse instantly. She said that a classmate of mine in junior high school had cancer and died for more than half a year, we were classmates, we were at the same table, we had young ignorance, we had quarrels, and we had many good memories. He is very smart, the words are also written beautifully, after graduating from undergraduate, he directly guaranteed the research, I thought that his life has been smooth, but I did not think... My best friend got married, but I really couldn't control it on the big day, and I cried in the car. Later, every day when I came home from work, I would think of the scenes in junior high school, his appearance, his eyes, the words he said... He is the old son of his parents, and he really can't imagine how sad his parents are...
Another is my high school classmate, also my buddy, I was like a boy in high school, and I had a good relationship with boys. When I was in college, because his school was not far from me, he also went to see me at school. He's the kind of guy who doesn't talk much, but can definitely make you laugh when he opens his mouth, and I've always thought he's an optimistic person. Just after the end of the year, I received the news of his death, and I fell into the river at night... When I heard this news, my whole body was trembling, and I couldn't dial the phone with shaky hands... He was in his twenties, leaving his wife and young son...
Then there was one of my students, white and pure, with big eyes, a tiger tooth, and a very beautiful girl. One day, another student told me that she had committed suicide by jumping into the river... Open her QQ space a lot of her photos, one by one to talk, but there will be no more updates. The memory is still of her youthful and beautiful face. Tears looked at her space over and over again, still couldn't believe she wasn't there...
I am a very fragile and crying person, and a little thing may touch me and cause my tears, not to mention this kind of thing, every time I cry until my eyes are swollen. Lately, somehow the tear point is particularly low, and I always think of my relatives and friends who have left. Hopefully they have all found their place, and heaven has no sickness...