In the evening, go for a walk with your wife. At that time, the sky has gradually darkened, the lights are just beginning to rise, and the neon signs of various shops along the street are colorful. Especially in front of the large and small hotels, the traffic is busy, and the owner greets the customers attentively. This scene is the most familiar to me, and I have been in the official arena for decades, and I have not participated in this kind of occasion. Even after retirement, thanks to my friends, I will still be invited to rub it here from time to time.
The real turning point was after I was diagnosed with cancer. Except for the day when the cancer was detected, I deliberately went to the hotel to drink a "farewell wine", and since then, I have never dripped wine again. It is not undesirable, it is really impossible, but it is suffocated by the cancer demon.
A few days ago, Zhenru brother came to visit and said one thing. His former colleague, a deputy station manager of the municipal epidemic prevention station, was also diagnosed with serious illness, and after the operation, the doctor repeatedly told him not to drink alcohol, but he did not care, and drank heavily every day. On the contrary, the friends who drank with him were very afraid, afraid that they would really drink a good villain and could not explain to his family. It is strange to say that it is such a nonsense that he eats Hesse, his illness has not worsened, for several years, he still lives well, and his body is very tough.
I don't have the open-mindedness. Although I feel that I have taken life and death very lightly, I have only taken it lightly, and I definitely have not paid any attention to it. Taking a step back, even if I didn't care at all, my family would not be able to pass that hurdle. You can't break up with your whole family for the sake of your appetite, can you? Therefore, I am completely in accordance with the doctor's advice, let eat as much as you eat, let you drink, let you eat what you eat, let me drink what to drink, just like Sister Lin first entered the RongGuo Mansion, did not dare to say a word, did not dare to take more than one step, and the thunder pool was thousands of miles away.
But I really can't figure it out in my heart: although this can delay my life, for me, who has become a part of life, drinking alcohol has become a part of my life, doesn't it mean that the joy of life has been completely deleted. Without a life of fun, what is the value of its existence? There was a joke that I used to joke about friends who had quit drinking because of illness: There was a person who was sick and went to the hospital for medical treatment. The doctor asked him, "Do you usually drink alcohol?" He replied, "Don't drink." Q: "Smoking?" Answered: "No smoking." The doctor said angrily, "Then what are you doing to see a doctor?" It means a folk proverb: "Don't smoke, don't drink, walk in the world." ”
To this end, I actually consulted my attending doctor and asked if I could drink alcohol in the future. I don't know if he was comforting me or if he was really there, but he said of course he could drink it, but not a lot. Hearing this, my heart suddenly sprang up with hope and confidence in the treatment of the disease.
A life that hopefully leads the way is called life. The wine star is in the sky, it is the beacon of my life.
2021/12/6
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