I have written two articles before to find a confidant, and I have been ridiculed for being too demanding, and some people say that such a confidant only exists in dreams! Some people say that your request to find a confidant is a pipe dream, and some people say that you are the highest state of pretending to be X. Yes, find a lover to choose one, find a confidant.
I have three conditions for finding a confidant: like-mindedness, three views coincide, and a sharp heart! The first two are also good to say that people with common hobbies are easy to find, people with three views are also easy to seek, and people with sharp hearts are really too few and too few. Because the heart has a spirit rhinoceros represents the same frequency resonance, the common magnetic field telepathy, the popular point is that both sides must have empathetic thoughts! Can resonate emotionally! That is, the person who understands what you know and hurts you! If you are a confidant of the opposite sex, it is equivalent to your soul mate!
Maybe many people in this world are looking for confidants, but many people have never found them in their lives. Maybe I was lucky that in my most beautiful years, I once had a confidant, a confidant of 10 years, who had never met, but was the stranger who knew each other best. It felt like we could play the most beautiful piece of music with just one string! About him, it's just that it's been too long, too long, and many fragments of him have been blurred! There are a lot of things I can't remember. Because he hadn't been in my dreams for a long, long time, and after the string broke, I and his magnetic field induction became weaker and weaker, so that now I couldn't sense any of the radio waves from him at all! It turns out that time can really dilute everything.....
I remember that in those 10 years, he never said like and love or ambiguous words to me, but we were so tacit with each other! I remember when I was 20 years old, kind and innocent, with a lark-like voice. He is 22 years old, humorous and funny, with a supreme soul! He was born first, I was fifteen years old. And the day we met was the Chinese New Year's Eve network. Maybe we are born with a fate, but also without a cause. We stopped and stayed, we passed by, we forgot about each other........
Thinking about it now, I really regret that I didn't record those moments in the first place, and now I can only rely on the only memory to write. I suddenly found that I could not speak, my hand could not write, my heart could not think, I did not know what kind of words to use to describe him? All the words will seem unsatisfactory! What is written does not express one hundred thousandth of what I feel! He, what kind of person is he? If you use two words to describe him, then he is a beautiful person. If you use four words to describe him, he is a beautiful and warm person. If subdivided: he is a talented person, well-written articles, and his feelings are sincere and delicate and soft. He is humorous and funny, can speak eloquently, has quick thinking, and eight out of ten sentences can make people laugh. But definitely not a vulgar joke!
The only thing I remember most deeply is the conversation between the two conversations.
Me: Some say I'm humorous, some say I'm cold.
Him: Haha, doesn't anyone say you're lonely?
I can't help but think of this sentence sometimes when I think about it now!
In the past, we used to call a lot, and his voice was kind and easy-going, sincere and warm, and did not give people an oppressive psychology at all. Even if it's a small meal up the stairs, we can talk for half an hour. He is very able to guide people's topics, chat will never be cold, once a week we will talk on the phone, each time can talk for two or three hours, almost every time can burst the previous IC card, but how to talk do not feel tired, there will always be endless topics, often laughing and breathless. Under his humor also activated my humor cells! After years of phone calls, I actually learned the tone and tone of his speech.
He is a man who sincerely knows how to respect women, if there is an occasional temporary incident in the middle of the phone call, he will sincerely and solemnly say to me:, I discussed something with you, I thought it was a big deal, very nervously asked, you say, what is the matter? But he said, hahaha, no big deal, someone is looking for me to temporarily have something to talk to you about, I ask you for a leave, can we talk next time? I said it's not a big deal, you go busy with your good. He was a polite person, every time after the call, I said I hung up, in fact, I was waiting for him to hang up first, ten seconds later he did not hang up, I asked why he did not hang up the phone? He said,, I'm waiting for you to hang up first. He is a sunny and warm man, never complains about the bitterness in life and study, and always treats people with optimism and sincerity! We often share each other's weather and life! The laughter is estimated to be heard all over the world.
I remember saying that seventy percent of our lives are unhappy, thirty percent are happy, we have to enjoy thirty percent of our happiness and create happiness in that seventy percent.....
We are the ones who know each other best, the meaning of every word in the text, the meaning of every expression, and even the meaning of every punctuation mark. (1) The meaning of multiple exclamation points and multiple exclamation points! He understood my silence, his sorrow, my joy and my tears.
He is a person with a delicate heart, I tried my best to cover up the cold on the phone, he still heard it,, you have a cold and a runny nose, don't delay, hurry to buy medicine! Once, when I shared my happiness with him, in order to help him, he deliberately sang a children's song to amuse, what to sing? He learned to sing xiao ya xiao ji lang in the voice of a child, carrying a school bag to school. Hahaha, I listened to it and couldn't help it... Whenever I was sad and crying, he didn't say too many words,, cry if you want to, I will listen to you cry for five minutes! After crying, he will ask me, the mood is better, what is the taste of tears, it is salty, it does not matter, after crying it is much better, everything will be fine! Go ahead, wash your face and get a good night's sleep to see the sun, the world is still so beautiful, believe me, everything is fine.
He is the person who replied to my text messages in seconds, every time he sent a text message, the mobile phone did not put down the message to reply, if it is not convenient, he will also tell me to finish the busy, never broke his word, he is the person who I can't sleep sleep and is willing to accompany me to wait for me. One night after drinking too much tea and having insomnia in the middle of the night, I sent a text message to the past, and I lost sleep and couldn't sleep. I thought he wouldn't come back when he fell asleep, who knows he'll come back right away,, I'll chat with you if I can't sleep. I was sleepy in the back and fell asleep in a daze. I woke up in the morning only to find multiple text messages on my phone at different times. Are you all asleep? It turned out that he had not slept all night. I was touched to the point of being a mess.
He was the kind man with great love in mind. He often helps people in need, often volunteers, donates blood N times, and learns first aid in addition to schoolwork! He told me I would donate his qi officer before I died..... Hope to leave one day without regrets! Yes, he is such a talented, intelligent and witty, humorous and funny, mature and steady, careful and considerate, keeping promises, kind and loving people! Just like this, it is enough to make many women fascinated! Not to mention a near-perfect complex?
Maybe you will ask, are you in love with him? Yes, I am also just a mortal, for such a nearly perfect person, I am hopelessly in love, very deep love, in order not to leave regrets, before marriage I once wrote a letter to confess to him, but he politely refused. This is a reasonable thing, I hope he accepts me and I am afraid that he will accept, refuse or good, I know that I am not worthy of him, people like him, should be worthy of the best and most perfect woman in the world, I also know that he is very principled in doing things, once he refuses, he will not give anyone any chance, I remember that afternoon many years ago, after I saw the rejection email, I cried darkly, the sun and the moon were dark. Tear your heart and lungs apart, your heart will be painful!
After more than half a year of losing his soul, another man with a completely different temperament appeared on the Internet, and was his alumnus, he cared about me, was considerate, and launched a fierce attack, I joked that I would write 99 love letters and I promised you, who knows he really did it, this person is my current husband! After marriage, he and I have been in contact with each other intermittently, but with less time, he still cares about my life on the phone, my work and my family, giving me endless strength and guidance in life.
Once I told him that I was pregnant, that I was vomiting so badly that I couldn't eat anything. He was also happy for me, and one night he sent a childish text message to amuse me: Mom, Mom, I'm so hungry, I want to eat and I want to drink soup! You have to eat more, I can grow white and fat, I thought it was funny and warm.......
He will send his truest wishes on every holiday! The blessing message will be followed by three exclamation points. Sometimes ten days and a half months without contacting us will receive a text message at the same time, XX are you still alive? Sometimes we pretend to forget each other's names... Once and only once, I couldn't help it, sent a text message to ask him, have you ever liked me a little, I don't want to talk to you anymore, I just want to know the answer, you just have to answer yes or no is enough for me! He told me that it's not a question you should ask when you're married, and you'll never find the answer here! Yes, I almost forgot, you have always been a rational and patient man, your feelings will never show dew, nor will you give me any chance to fantasize! It's just that he didn't know, I had a dream that night, in which he told me,, I like you too, but we can't be together...
Once he said, I sometimes feel really sad for your husband, you don't love him at all! I said so what? He's been nice to me, I'm good to him, and for marriage, it's enough, I have no choice! This is probably the best option! He was silent. Maybe you will ask? Have you never considered meeting, yes, have considered, and there have been several opportunities close at hand, I hesitate, I have low self-esteem, I do not have the courage to face him, I am afraid that I will cry and weep when I see him.......
When he was 30 years old I asked him, why aren't you married? I know that there are many girls who like you, he said that with my current conditions can not give other people girls happiness, I do not want people to suffer with me, yes, you always think too much about others, never think about the pressure and bitterness you bear.......
I remember that the last appointment was already the tenth year, he was in Chengdu, I told him that my husband's work may be transferred to Chengdu recently, if possible, I will also pass, when the time comes, we will meet together to make a meal together! He readily agreed. Of course, in the end, he didn't go to success, but he didn't know that the matter of meeting and cooking appeared countless times in my dreams. A few months later, he left Chengdu, and overnight he changed all his contact details, sorry! The phone you made has stopped........
This time I didn't cry, I was unusually calm! I remember he said he was going to get married before 35, ten years ago, that year I was 30, he was 32, he had his way to go, I had bothered him too much too much. Thank you for your company, if I can live 80 years old you have accompanied me in one eighth of my life, if I live at 60 years old you have accompanied one-sixth of the life. I'm content.
Only for the rest of my life, I lost my beloved toy like a child and can never find it again, and since then I have seen the mountain like you, and the water like you, and I know that the mountain is not you, and the water is not you. People who see similar looks and voices and similar names think it's you, but I know it's not you! Looking at the person in that picture, sometimes it seems to be smiling at me and like crying at me, like it is full of tender pity and like it is full of melancholy hatred? A variety of complex and roundabout emotions!
No one listens to my laughter anymore and no one understands my tears anymore, and whenever I see your picture when I am helpless, it always gives me endless strength! Your words and deeds and your thoughts have been influencing me, and I know that I can do anything well. I've learned to be strong. Maybe the day when the white hair is gray, we will meet on a street corner, although the face is old, but the heart is more abundant, we will recognize each other at a glance... A few meters away, tears flowed first. Perhaps, in this life, we are like two parallel lines that never intersect and never meet... As for the years to come, for you, I will not think of you every day, but I will never forget, I will always bless you, and bless your family, may you be treated tenderly by the world for the rest of your lives..............