Lu Dawson's body has been found and has been determined to be a suicide
There are many theories about his death, and according to his own suicide note, the main thing is that the school violence left him with great trauma.
Judging from his suicide note, he was actually an ordinary person.
School violence, no money after graduation.
Fat and out of shape, no real friends.
In fact, this is the portrayal of the vast majority of people.
The money earned is to deal with a subsistence, and if you want to eat a good meal, you have to weigh it.
In his suicide note, he wrote about the pressure from his family.
His parents, friends and family, thought he was an influencer and must be rich.
It is estimated that he usually scolds him for not talking about human feelings and not "lending" them money to spend.
In short, under multiple pressures, people are gone.
Dawson said something about school violence.
A former junior high school classmate also experienced school violence.
The boy was from a single-parent family, and his father was a former miner who died in a well to save his co-workers.
The money for the work injury was swindled away by his relatives.
He has problems with intelligence, but he is a good man, and he never complains about what he does.
His mother found help from the mine to help him live a normal life and sent him to our school.
As a result, because of intellectual problems, he was bullied, humiliated, and tortured by a group of in school.
In short, think for yourself!
Finally, it reached the point where they "ticked urine" when they saw those bastards
Because of the stink of his body, teachers and classmates all spoke harshly to him.
Then one day he was stripped naked and pushed into the women's restroom by this group of drunk bastards.
He was miserable, and his cries of fear echoed throughout the school.
But no one dared to care.
Then his mother came and quarreled with the principal and the class teacher.
Finally the headmaster couldn't do anything about it, and called the bastard's dad and asked him to solve the problem.
The bastard's dad drove the Audi over, and without saying a word, kicked the woman and vomited blood.
Then he threw down five hundred dollars and left.
After that, the fool dropped out of school, selling sugar gourds on the street, and the cold weather froze to a big nose.
After buying it, he didn't sell it, because he always received fake money, or he would give the sugar gourd to the child to eat.
He likes children very much, especially at the age of kindergarten, because only children of that age do not scold him or beat him.
After that I went to college.
The fool at that time was dressed neatly and his hair was clean, and he greeted me by my name when he saw me.
When I came home in my sophomore year, I saw a fool picking up something to eat in the dumpster, his clothes torn and his hair twisted.
My parents said the stupid mother had fallen ill and died.
I sometimes wonder what her mother was in when she died!
Look at what kind of eyes a fool is!
Before dying, did you help the fool wash all the clothes, did you help the fool cut the last hair?
This society is like this, among the leisurely beings, how many people can stand up and shine.
But sometimes the external pressure is too great, such as their own parents.
Your parents' expectations of you are mixed with disappointment in their former selves.
They are angry at others and want you, as their child, to save face
Especially as an only child, the pressure of the whole family depends on you to support it.
Dawson has been holding on to what he calls his favorite things.
In fact, his persistence is not so in order to earn enough money to let his parents have face, let relatives and friends praise, and let the evil people who once violently abused him look at him.
It's just that the ideal is very full, and the reality is very bone.
The so-called effort is nothing more than living a life of the walking dead day after day.
When there is no passion, just to live for the sake of living, who can help him to relieve the suffering in his heart.
Life and death come and go, shed puppets. When a line is broken, it falls.
This is from the "Flower Mirror" by the famous Japanese noh drama master Shi Ami.
It means, "Life in the world is nothing more than a shell like a puppet, and when the soul leaves the body, the rest of the shell is scattered like a puppet with a broken line, and many things, for the world, cannot be grasped." ”
The interpretation of this sentence reads quite mournfully, as if all the actions being carried out are meaningless and reveals a hint of compassion for the world.
Life is like a drama, when you go, you know the way to come, and the mirror is empty.
Dawson's death made me watch Norwegian Woods again.
Outside the window, the traffic is busy, and the neon is shining
Inside the window, my heart was lonely, like black ink
Finally, Dawson, rest in peace!