Liu Shu is always fleeting, just like Chen Xiaoxu, who plays Lin Daiyu in the "Dream of the Red Chamber", who comes carefree and finally disappears into the wind.
Chen Xiaoxu was born in Anshan, Liaoning in 1965. Before she was born, Chen Xiaoxu's mother had a dream in which a monk said to her: "Sister, your fetus is a female fetus, and her name should be '棻', so that you can have a peaceful life." After waking up from the dream, Wang Yuanxi told her husband Chen Qiang about this dream, and after Wang Qiang listened, he invited a famous local "divine operator" to interpret the dream. The divine operator told him, "This name is your daughter's fate. Chen Qiang discussed with his wife after listening to it, this name can not be taken, his baby should be the rising sun, rising, and finally decided to name the child Chen Xiaoxu.
Chen Xiaoxu's parents are working in the literary and art circles, and Chen Xiaoxu, who was born in an artistic family, is inspired to be a small flower that blooms in the literary and art circles. She was obsessed with ballet dancing and dreamed of becoming a great ballet dancer. But because she was in a special period, her whole family was criticized for engaging in art, and she did not understand at that time, was it wrong to pursue beauty?
She didn't understand why her parents were being blamed by others, why even her neighbors had to walk around her. Because of these childhood experiences, Chen Xiaoxu became inferior and sensitive. Although Chen Xiaoxu had almost no friends in her childhood, she still practiced ballet hard, and she felt that if she brought art to the world, let people understand beauty and praise, she should not be criticized again.
But when she was 12 years old, because of a comment from her mentor, all her efforts over the past two years were in vain. In 1977, the best dance school in the province came to Liaoning to enroll, and Chen Xiaoxu also applied for the exam. She looked forward to better training in school, tried to show her talents to her mentors during the audition, and finally lived up to her efforts, among thousands of people, she and another little girl were admitted, she danced happily, and went home to share the good news with her parents. But just when the family was happy, bad luck came. Chen Xiaoxu's father was marked with the banner of capitalism at that time, and Chen Xiaoxu also became the successor of capitalism, and the dance school resolutely refused to accept such children after understanding his background, and Chen Xiaoxu's dream was shattered in an instant.
She hated why she was born in this special period, hated her talent for being drowned in the vast sea of people. In 1979, Chen Xiaoxu went to work as a announcer in a drama troupe in Anshan, and although her dreams were drowned, she never gave up. Every time she waited for the theater to end, she always practiced dancing alone on the stage, looking forward to the day when the sun rose in the east. It was there that Chen Xiaoxu met Bi Yanjun, who was 10 years older than himself, and Bi Yanjun was very concerned about her, and sometimes taught her to practice dance, and the two people who had just opened their love affairs slowly exchanged feelings for each other in the past few years.
Later, Bi Yanjun was admitted to the Shanghai Theater Academy, and one day he happened to see Yangguang shooting "Dream of the Red Chamber", he felt that Lin Daiyu's role was suitable for Chen Xiaoxu to play, he immediately told Chen Xiaoxu the good news, hoping that she could compete for the role of Lin Daiyu. But Chen Xiaoxu was born indecisive and inferior, feeling that so many professional actors are competing, and he has no professional training, and the previous failure of dance school has already hit himself once, is it necessary to come back a second time? This time, for sure, there is no hope. After Bi Yanjun heard Sister Chen's explanation, he quipped, "Where did you fall and lie down?" If you want to do this, it is not the Chen sister in my heart. Chen Xiaoxu listened and said loudly, "Go and go, I'm still afraid I won't be able to do it!" ”
Chen Xiaoxu immediately wrote a self-recommendation letter to the director of "Dream of the Red Chamber", which was attached with her own art photos and self-created poems, and she did not expect that it was this self-recommendation letter that changed the fate of her life.
In the mountain of self-cover letters, the director paid attention to Chen Xiaoxu's letter at a glance, and he looked at the melancholy woman in the photo and decided that this was the Lin Daiyu he was looking for. The director immediately asked the assistant to notify Chen Xiaoxu to come to the crew for an interview. After Chen Xiaoxu arrived at the crew, everyone's eyes couldn't help but be attracted to her, and the woman in front of her was like Lin Daiyu coming out of the painting. After the director saw it, he was even more praised, so Chen Xiaoxu smoothly entered the group and began a three-month training life.
In the process of training, she substituted the feeling of her dream being hit into Lin Daiyu, the injustice of fate, the complaint of the times, and the true feelings that flowed out of her body to the fullest. After a long three-month training, Chen Xiaoxu successfully got the role of Lin Daiyu.
Chen Xiaoxu moved into Daguanyuan with the crew, where he began the filming of "Dream of the Red Chamber" for three years. Once the director asked Chen Xiaoxu: "Except for Sister Lin, which one will you play?" Chen Xiaoxu replied, "Then the audience will definitely say that your Lin Daiyu is going to play other roles." ”
Once "Dream of the Red Chamber" was broadcast, it was unanimously praised by the people of the whole country, and everyone felt that Chen Xiaoxu played the role of Lin Daiyu, as if Cao Xueqin's Lin Daiyu looked like this, and Chen Xiaoxu also became popular.
Chen Xiaoxu did not spoil herself because of her popularity, she chose to marry Bi Yanjun in the face of a bright future. The two people can't wait to go to the marriage hall, Chen Xiaoxu's heart is full of expectations, Bi Yanjun's care for her for many years has deeply touched her, she looks forward to a better life after marriage, but reality has given her a painful blow.
After marriage, Bi Yanjun devoted herself to her career for the sake of her family and paid little attention to Chen Xiaoxu. Chen Xiaoxu is often alone at home, sensitive and suspicious, which is very different from the love she imagined. She felt that Bi Yanjun had changed, but Bi Yanjun thought that her sister Chen could not come out in the dream of the Red Chamber, like a small family temper. The two quarreled many times and ended in divorce.
After the divorce, Chen Xiaoxu chose to stay in Beijing, believing that he was now a saffron and would be able to break through in Beijing by his own efforts. But her role as Lin Daiyu is so memorable that the ratings of other roles she played were average, and her acting career began to decline.
Chen Xiaoxu, who has been wandering in Beijing for so long but still has no foothold, decided to give up her current resources and go to the United States for further study, but she was refused a visa for various reasons, so she had to go to Germany to study first, thinking that she would have the opportunity to go to the United States again. Chen Xiaoxu stayed in Germany for half a year but could not adapt to life abroad, she thought twice and decided to return to China.
After returning to China, Chen Xiaoxu felt that his image of Lin Daiyu had been deeply rooted in the hearts of the people, and he had no prospects for the development of the show business circle, and he had to find another way out. Once, Chen Xiaoxu went to the Beijing Film Academy to find friends, and accidentally established Hao Tong, who was looking for a heroine in order to set up a heroine, hao Tong had a very good feeling for Lin Daiyu, played by Chen Xiaoxu, and invited her to play the heroine of his own Bishe "Black Grapes", but Chen Xiaoxu refused. Chen Xiaoxu believes that he is no longer suitable for filming, but at Hao Tong's insistence, he is willing to take time to listen to Hao Tong talk about his plays and tell him the reasons why he is not willing to shoot again. Hao Tong felt that Chen Xiaoxu was a natural good actor, that gold could never become a lump of earth, and would shine everywhere he went. After listening to Hao Tong's opinions and ideas, Chen Xiaoxu became interested in the college student in front of him, thinking that Hao Tong was so young, but his thinking was very mature, and he would definitely be of great help to his career in the future, so he gladly invited and agreed to play the heroine of Hao Tongbishi.
In the filming process, Chen Xiaoxu was as lin daiyu style as ever, and rarely communicated with people in private, and several of Hao Tong's classmates often said that Chen Xiaoxu was particularly cold and cold, making people dare not come close. But Chen Xiaoxu is just not accustomed to contacting other people, she saw these college students in order to save money, eat nutritious rice every day, drink water connected to the water pipe, and her heart was very painful. When the film was finished and Hao Tong paid Chen Xiaoxu, Chen Xiaoxu only took a thousand yuan as a travel fee, and said to Hao Tong: "It is not easy for you college students to start a business, go and eat a nutritious meal, see how you are yellow and thin, and how can you be hungry." Hao Tong was deeply touched after listening to the words, and he also identified this person in his heart.
After that, Hao Tong always intentionally and unintentionally looked for Chen Xiaoxu, and the two quickly came together. But life in the north drift is bitter, Hao Tong just graduated and has no stable income, the two people in Beijing eat the cheapest meal, take the cheapest bus, once Chen Xiaoxu's father really can't see it, gave Chen Xiaoxu a sum of money. Day after day of life, Chen Xiaoxu began to think about what he had suffered so much for, just when he could not persist, her boyfriend Hao Tong said to her that a large advertising company is expanding its branches, coupled with national policy support, this must be a good industry in the morning. Chen Xiaoxu was moved after listening to it, and within a few days, the two came to the advertising agency to talk about cooperation. When the project leader saw that the other party was Chen Xiaoxu, he happily handed over the business to her, saying that he believed in The character of Lin Sister.
Chen Xiaoxu also lived up to expectations, and the company earned 5 million yuan in just one year under her leadership. In that era when a dime could be divided into ten parts, 5 million was a huge amount. In each subsequent year, Chen Xiaoxu's turnover gradually increased, and within a few years, she was already a billionaire. But she has too many things to worry about every day, and often confides in Hao Tong, who is very distressed about this, and he decided to quit his job at CCTV to help Chen Xiaoxu share it. With the efforts of the two people, the scale of the company has become larger and larger, but Chen Xiaoxu has begun to be depressed every day. She often thinks, "I make so much money, but my heart is not happy." My temper is no longer as gentle as before, but has become grumpy, is this really what I want? During the period when Chen Xiaoxu was negative, she overheard a monk's Mahayana Sutra of Immeasurable Life, which turned her life around greatly.
Lin Daiyu continued to search for the author of this quotation, and finally found the monk in Hong Kong, the big bald head. The appearance of the big bald head affected her life and was also one of the reasons that indirectly led to Chen Xiaoxu's death.
On the surface, he is a monk who is kind and charitable, but he is actually a wolf with a sheep's clothing on his head. In the few years of getting acquainted with the big bald head, Chen Xiaoxu was like entering a pyramid scheme organization, except for the words of the big bald head, he did not listen to anything else. She first spent a lot of money to build a Buddhist temple for the temple of the big bald head, and then donated a luxury car to the temple, etc., many of which were written in the name of the big bald head. Most of the assets that Chen Xiaoxu and Hao Tong earned in their lives went into the pockets of the big bald heads.
In addition to dominating the property, the big bald head also dominated Chen Xiaoxu's life.
In 2006, Chen Xiaoxu was diagnosed with breast cancer, and the family hoped that she could listen to the doctor's words and cooperate with the treatment well, but Sister Chen prostrated her head in front of her family and announced that she was going to leave the family. This makes the family unacceptable, Chen Father once said in an interview: "Daughter loves beauty, afraid that surgery will affect her body, I found a Chinese medicine doctor to prescribe medicine for her, but she also did not eat, I and the child's mother have no way, can only call the big bald head, after the big bald head and her through the phone, she is willing to take medicine." My heart was also bitter, my own daughter did not listen to us, but was affected by a big bald head. ”
In February 2007, Chen Xiaoxu was ordained with the legal title of "Miaozhen", and Hao Tong followed her ordination. At this time, Sister Chen had completely overcome the fear of illness, she had already looked down on life and death, and she knew that her life would soon be over. But as the condition became more and more serious, cancer cells had spread all over her body, And Sister Chen began to become unable to eat and walk normally, and she cried out to her mother in pain every day, and finally on May 13, she ended her life at the age of 41. After all, she did not escape the same tragic fate as Lin Daiyu, she was like Lin Daiyu, in the pain of the incense to lose jade, and his husband, after her death, alive and became Jia Baoyu, is life like a drama, or drama like life?
People often ask, if Chen Xiaoxu had not met the big bald head, would her fate be completely different? Will she be at ease to listen to her family's words and receive treatment, will not be affected by the bald head, and think that if she takes refuge in Buddhism, she will not be plagued by illness. But the beauty is gone, and we can only feel sorry for her.
After Chen Xiaoxu's death, her family founded the "Chen Xiaoxu Charity Foundation" with her personal property of 50 million yuan in accordance with her last wishes, and her name will always live in people's hearts.
Her husband, Hao Tong, after accompanying her throughout his life, chose to continue to take over the company he and Chen Xiaoxu founded after several years. Later, Father Chen said in an interview: "Hao Tong is very sad, we can see that there is not much contact between us, my daughter was born, he was very good to her, what decision he makes now, I think I will also approve." ”
Although the beauty has passed away, her Lin Daiyu will be remembered by us forever. Liu Shurong, away from the hurry, often remembers the beautiful person in the dream.