(This article is a series of works, continuing from the previous part: "Whose Cry – Is It Really Illusory?") 》）
"Eat the mother's milk, give it to the mother, but I don't have the mother to hurt, the father is cruel, the mother is ruthless, and the remaining little people have nothing to rely on." In the endless night, there seemed to be a crisp nursery rhyme sound, the sound was shocking, stimulating Li Xiang's eardrums, he couldn't help but hold his head with both hands, such a child's voice was too sharp, and the headache feeling came again. Then there was the sound of children's quiet cries echoing in this endless night, this sound rose and fell with each other, it turned out not to be a child's voice, Li Xiang looked around in horror, he tried to open his eyes to let the night fade a little, to show him a way forward, but in the night around him flashed several pairs of blue eyes, the blue eyes were as many as eight or nine pairs, accompanied by choking cries blinking, obviously making people feel chilly, but also appeared so aggrieved and helpless, the blue eyes had no malice, Only endless grievances and pain spread throughout the night.
Among these eyes, there was a figure coming, seeing this figure, Li Xiang inexplicably felt at ease, although the figure was also so dark that he could not see her face clearly, as if he had melted into this night, as if he had become one with this boundless darkness, but this figure was too familiar to him, he still felt her, because in his most difficult times, it was this figure that gave him endless hope and love, and he thought that such love and support had no half effect on him. It doesn't really change his life, his desire for hope is never that, and this woman who loves him can't give him what he wants.
But now in this endless despair, he was so eager for this figure. He held out his hand to her, as if grasping the figure would soothe his fearful soul...
Dawn finally came, and the first rays of light of the morning were projected on Li Xiang's face, and Li Xiang opened his eyes, but his ears still seemed to ring the cries of those children.
All around him was snow white, he woke up in a hospital bed, the pain in his arm came, it made him awake a lot, what happened last night, he felt a mess in his head, it seemed like a fantasy, he couldn't figure it out, who was the one who finally sent him to the hospital?
He turned his head, but found a figure with his back to him, which looked thin and thin, shaking his shoulders slightly, as if he was suppressing his crying.
"Tian Rong?" Li Xiang still recognized this figure.
The figure finally turned his head, the tear marks on his face did not dry, seeing this familiar figure Li Xiang was unable to speak, nor did he want to say, in the depths of his heart he did not want to see this figure again, this figure made him have a sense of bondage, a sense of depression, and some guilt, these feelings together made him feel very bad, and finally transformed into a disgust.
"Rest assured, I don't want to pestering you again," Li Xiang didn't want to talk, but Tian Rong spoke, "I was in a coma for two days and two nights, and I only woke up this morning, and the deep sleep of these two days made me seem to see a lot, and I also felt a lot, and also made me want to understand a lot, knowing that you were also admitted to the hospital last night, just came to see you to explain." You're right, I can't give you what you want, even if we were once young? What if we've had so much of a past? It's my stupidity to be moved by a heartless person, but you know what? This child is gone again, this time I did not want to let it go, but it is still gone, it is also your child, I may never have children again, this may be the stupid punishment given to me by Heaven, I fell in love with people I should not love, believed in people who should not believe, deprived those children of their rights again and again, and I was finally punished for this, I believe in you so much, so contemptuous of life, Heaven let me lose the right to be a mother forever, but I don't hate you, because I myself know people, I came, I just want to tell you, You no longer deserve any love and hatred I have for you, not worth it, not worth it at all, and I have a little reluctance or hatred or resentment for you, it is all contempt for myself, because you are not worthy! After saying that, Tian Rong's face showed a smile, a little miserable, but there was more relief, and the light in her eyes lit up, that is the hope for the future life after completely letting go of him, right?
Tian Rong's words should have made Li Xiang really relaxed, but Li Xiang couldn't rejoice at all in his heart. How could he suddenly feel that he was not worth anything?! He still has some value in this woman's heart, and now in this woman's heart, he has no value at all, so what is he? It seems that the whole world is really gray, and he Li Xiang was originally so lowly?!
Tian Rong turned and left, her figure was straight and firm, and she no longer had the slightest attachment to him.
Some pictures kept flashing in Li Xiang's mind:
After everyone laughed at him, Tian Rong affirmed him, "You have to be strong, believe that you can." ”
"Next time you have to be careful." Accidentally injured on the construction site, the woman carefully bandaged him and whispered softly.
"Coming back? The rice is ready, let's eat it. The food on the table was light, but the woman's face was filled with a satisfied smile, and she seemed to be content to see him, but he was very disappointed in the face of simple food.
"How can you foreman do this, let's go find him together!" Another time to recover the salary did not come back, Li Xiang was a little angry, the woman also accompanied him angry, and even wanted to stand up for him.
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In the past, there is the figure of the woman, every broken time is flashing with the gentle gaze of the woman, once upon a time, this care became his burden, making him want to escape, becoming his upward obstacle?
"What is she looking for me for?" We are not married, and we have the right to choose our marriage freely. ”
"I'm not a boyfriend or girlfriend with her at all, and I've broken up long ago."
"She had nine abortions for you, and if you had another abortion, you might not be fertile..."
"It is her own right not to have children, and I did not say that she must have children or not."
"You've known each other since you were a child, and you haven't felt guilty at all after so many years together?"
"What do I have to feel guilty about? What can she give me? I want the life she can give me? ”
"You're a man, you can make your own money?"
"How to earn? Still working? Can I earn a factory? ”
The scenes of the past were displayed one by one in front of Li Xiang's eyes, he once said so straight, he never thought that he owed Anything to Tian Rong, including the children who had been lost, after all, they had not formed a human form, he could not be responsible for them, as for the relationship with Tian Rong, it was purely your love and my wishes. Thinking of Li Xiang's heart like this, he was happy again, but he couldn't understand why, there was still a little bit of loss...
"How?! Was it the woman who came just now? You still can't help it?! A loud roar awakened Li Xiang, who was immersed in memories.
"What do you say you're making on your wedding night?" If you don't want to go to someone's house, you can't help it. "It was Yu Hui who came, and it should have been seen that Tian Rong had gone out from here, so he came to make trouble again."
"You said you just had a good skin bag, and it was really useless!" Can't walk steadily? This just got married and had to come to the hospital to serve you..." Yu Hui's domineering voice rang out again, this is his domineering bride...
"How many little white faces has this woman driven crazy, and now she's sending another one?" There was a sound of footsteps outside the door, a series of intermittent whispers coming in, and then disappeared at the end of the corridor with the sound of footsteps, as if nothing had happened...
This marriage is married, what will the future be like? Li Xiang suddenly felt that the rest of his life was uncertain, he could not, nor did he dare to think about it anymore...
Li Xiang's arm suddenly hurt badly, but this pain may be known to him alone, right? Because except for himself, no one will care about his injury anymore, and the wound will only know the pain in his own body...
In the pain, the whimpering cry seemed to ring in his ears again, and a pair of innocent faces and a pair of aggrieved eyes floated in front of his eyes...