The wind mercilessly blows down the last fallen leaves, representing the end of autumn and the coming of winter;
I walked aimlessly down the cold street, the familiar melody echoing in my headphones;
Cars on both sides of the road are whirring past, and the gas behind the exhaust pipe is very cute;
Will it snow this winter?
This is a ridiculous question, and I can't help but laugh at myself;
For a southerner who comes to the North for the first time and wants to feel a different winter;
No northerner can understand the southerner's longing and feelings for snow;
I am a native of the South who has never seen real snow since I was a child;
When I opened the refrigerator as a child and looked at the white frost, I thought it was snow;
My mother would always dig up a little frost with a spoon and put it on the palm of my hand.
The cold frost slowly melted in the palm of my hand, and I began to be anxious, always trying to keep it;
Watching it melt little by little on the palm of my hand, I actually cried.
As a young man, I did not understand that because of my liking, I erased frost's life;
Gradually grow up, understand some truths, and learn to suppress their hearts;
For example, I like a toy, I want it very much,
But in order not to increase the burden on the family's economy, I don't want my parents to be embarrassed,
I would deliberately say I didn't like the toy so my mother wouldn't feel embarrassed.
I even praised me as a well-behaved child who knows things.
From childhood to adulthood, they are labeled as "good children", that can not do anything out of the ordinary.
And it was, like the first time the teacher saw me.
She would say to me, "You're a good student."
Normal students must be very happy to hear it, because this is the teacher's praise.
But I wasn't happy at all, because it wasn't a compliment to me.
Many people say that a child who seems to be very well-behaved is actually rebellious in his heart.
On the contrary, a seemingly rebellious child is simple and calm at heart.
In fact, I would say that everyone will have moments of slight rebellion, and there will also be moments of simple calm.
I don't want anyone to live under the label.
The whole reading era was spent peacefully, and suddenly I wanted some "new breakthrough" at the moment of graduation.
He made plans to come to the north to develop
At first, the family disagreed, even strongly.
The "good boy" who has always been not playing cards according to the routine is really elusive;
I don't want to be "put in the arrangement of life", I want to live my own life;
Just like this, a person came to the north country, without a single support from my family, I came!
A completely unfamiliar territory, with no people to know, no familiar things, nothing to eat;
Material deprivation did not crush me, but spiritual richness enriched me.
Bread will have something that I can only create on my own.
Once a "good kid" turned into a "bad kid"
But I'm still me, just fireworks of different colors....