Maybe every wisdom tooth is the price of your years of stubbornness

wisdom tooth

Every time something related to my teeth, I always have two battles. It is reasonable to say that if you are not a thirteen-year-old child, you will not be able to learn to be calm.

Sometimes the mouth says that I am not afraid, and when I go to the chair, I put myself into a big word, and the incandescent lamps on both sides turn on, facing your frightened mouth, and the momentum is like a slag hole torturing prisoners, and the eighteen torture instruments are lined up one by one. So I admired those martyrs who preferred to die indomitably, wedge bamboo sticks into the nails, pulled the nails off one by one, the leather whip served the whole body, and the throat was filled with pepper water... Just thinking about it, it starts to hurt.

The matter related to teeth is the most unforgettable thing in my short life.

At the beginning of September this year, I went to make up my teeth once, and whenever I was grilled by an incandescent lamp, a pair of pliers that looked like countless predecessors had been used by dentists, and a small mirror suspected of being stained to check the gum bed, I felt that I was not respected enough, and it turned out that I was no different from a salted fish. At least like other doctors, open disposable needles and syringes in front of you, in such a severe situation, the delicate instruments that open a person's mouth do not need to be disposable, not disinfected, not fortified, anyway, I think it is very dangerous.

Maybe you want to say that people just didn't disinfect your face, in fact, I sat in the waiting room, can't say that it was a waiting room, that is, a row of sofas at the north wall of the dental front desk, waited for twenty minutes, during which I opened Zhang Ailing's translation of "Flowers on the Sea", while thinking about the ape, I asked five or six times when it was my turn? The office I went to was just south of the waiting hall, with the door open, and a man was lying on the chair I was about to lie on. When I went, the wall clock on the opposite wall rang twelve times, it was the kind of old-fashioned wall clock, and at the top crouched a gilded eagle, and each knock of the eagle's wings seemed to open a micron.

The early autumn sun shines through the south-facing glass curtain wall, bright and trance, a lone cloud floats like a white sail in the blue sea, and the world in front of you is a little too quiet. Shorter than thoughts, longer than love. So much so that I forgot to go to the execution bed right away.

At this time, the sunlight penetrated the glass curtain wall above the south wall of the hospital, and the dust around the window frame danced silently in the sunlight.

I think there must be another world that I can't enter, but I don't know if there will be irregular pain in that world.

It was a beautiful day in the northern temperate zone, it had not rained for several days, the air was somewhat dry, but fortunately my face did not peel like today in previous years, like fish scales rising and peeling off, grumbling and depressed in the years.

On such a beautiful early autumn afternoon, I hid in the dental hospital waiting for treatment, a little happy and a little cold. It was just that my teeth trembled alone in the gums.

As soon as the man walked out, I immediately went in, they didn't have time to disinfect, and the reason why I didn't question me immediately was because I was afraid of affecting the mood of the dentist and his assistant, for fear that they would bury a foreshadowing when they would fill my teeth, or it would be extremely painful. So sometimes our silence and the reason for our silence are so difficult to say, in fact, it is cowardice.

Therefore, at present, our society urgently needs to see the righteous courage as a reward, and reward those who dare to bravely say no to the inappropriate. Our society is so sick that no one dares to speak normally, for fear of being treated as an abnormal fa-rectification.

On September 13, my daughter also had her teeth straightened, and two wisdom teeth were extracted on each side of the lower gum bed. Looking at the teeth tightly wrapped in silvery-white aluminum hoops, the daughter said Mom, I was sealed, and then picked up a tissue to wipe away the blood oozing from the corner of my mouth. After a while, the transparent bag next to the pillow was stuffed with bloody paper balls as high as a hill, and the paper balls of red flowers on a white background were not ugly, but my head was heavy, and my head suddenly became a little numb. Those blood-colored clumps of paper were like some flesh-and-blood vines, tearing from my body and tearing me into countless pieces. The pain surged like a tidal wave, and countless holes were opened in the bottom of my heart, each hole was a blur of blood and flesh, as if all the mistakes made over the years had come to shoot at gunpoint, and those wounds were still emitting indigo smoke, moaning about countless unbearable pasts.

While I insincerely blamed her for not protecting her teeth, I hated myself for not being harsh enough on her in the past, and at the same time I was tormented that I was so powerless to suffer this sin for her.

It turned out that the child's toothache was ten times more painful than my own toothache, and during this period I shed more tears than in the past ten years combined.

The daughter said Mom, I am so puffy mouth, biting the word is not clear, then I am not running for the league branch secretary has no advantage?

I said wrong, you must have more advantages, of course, it does not mean that you have to sell miserable, you are in a disabled point of view, no, you are not disabled! That is finally injured, an injured person's mouth was still bleeding yesterday, he came to run for the secretary of the league, how emotional it is, right.

The daughter broke her nose and smiled, like a flower blooming spring, silent and bright.

Mom I want to take off the manuscript, they must read according to the manuscript, I don't read the manuscript, I am creative. One of our dorm roommates said that I wrote a good manuscript and they read it for me, where can I get others to read it, isn't it insincere?

Right, right, you're so right.

Then he told me the content of the speech twice with a vague and vague speech that seemed to leak the wind, starting from his own situation, his mentality was lowered, and his voice was full of emotion.

I said that when I looked at each other in the third day, I raised my hands and feet to praise. The little girl whose cheeks on the lower right had not yet subsided and whose face had changed smiled, as if all the flowers were on their way to spring, and all the beauty was pouring into me.

It turns out that a person who is a mother, the feeling of motherhood is also slowly accumulating with the situation.

Maybe every wisdom tooth is the price of your years of stubbornness, they are full of unbearable wounds in your memory, and they can't be changed. Slowly disintegrated by the fresh years, hanging on the gum bed without a word, with the temperament of not participating in insoluble, slowly drying the flesh and blood into sedimentary rock.

Every wisdom tooth must be the sincerity and price of your growth, they represent your childish past, linking you to a future that you cannot overdraw.