My husband and I are both only children after 80, so many times I don't know who to talk to, I can only hide in my heart.
My family lives in the countryside, the family conditions are really very poor, so I graduated from junior high school and went out to work, because I was still young, so I concentrated on earning money, until I met my husband in 2008, and we got married 2 years later. After marriage, we only had a baby in 2012 because our conditions were not allowed, so I stayed in the countryside with children. The original conditions are not good, and having a child can be said to earn a point with a point. When my child was almost 2 years old, I chose to work in our town, and it was more than 1,000 in a month, and my petty use with my child was enough. Until the child was more than 4 years old, I used the money my mother-in-law gave me to open a clothing store, and the business was OK, higher than the salary at work. It wasn't until 2017 that the changes disrupted all my plans. In the first half of the year, my mother-in-law's family was demolished, I was also unexpectedly pregnant, my mother-in-law resolutely disagreed with us to fight it, and my husband and I were very reluctant to give birth, so I planned to give birth. For convenience, the husband used the money from the demolition to buy a car. It's okay to see business, so I changed the front of a new house on the street, thinking that after Xiaobao was born, my mother and I could watch the shop together to take care of the children. However, less than 10 days after the opening of the new store, my mother checked out the cancer, went to our city hospital on the same day, and asked for hospitalization to arrange surgery on the same day. At 5 months pregnant, I had no idea what to do. Because my husband works in our city, so my husband takes care of me at home, my father takes care of my mother in the hospital, fortunately there was a car at that time, my husband runs in the store every day, in the township, the hospital (it takes 1 hour to drive to the hospital) because my mother in the township fed me dozens of chickens to eat in the month. In addition, the old shop was still open at that time, and it was the end of the year (the peak season for rural clothing stores). It took more than 20 days for my mother to be discharged from the hospital, and this operation made my mother, who was already in poor health, even more haggard. The doctor knew that I was about to give birth to my second eldest, so he specially instructed my mother not to take children or work for 3 years.
Later, when the child was born, my husband has been at home to take care of my confinement, and by the way, I have to take care of my mother. (That half year is really hard husband) Husband did not work much in half a year, and my store because no one looked, the new store has been inviting people, the old store directly closed after the year. If it weren't for the money for the demolition of the husband's family, I really don't know where to find money to see my mother, where to find money to use in the six months, 6 people's expenses, no income, my mother and children still have to keep up with nutrition, my dad belongs to the relatively lazy, before there was no way to do a lot of hard work, heard the husband's family demolition, he has not worked much since then, basically fishing, mahjong, but also smoking and drinking. When I ran out of money, I asked my mother for money, because he knew that I often gave my mother money to play mahjong.
In 2018, because the child was too small, my mother was not in good health, so the store has been inviting people, the business is OK, but at the end of the year the epidemic has come again, this business is getting worse and worse, in 2019 I dare not invite people, I took care of the children while looking at the store, until June 2021, under the epidemic I really can't stand it, and closed the store (because the business is too bad)
I have been resting at home for two months, spending summer vacation with my children by the way, thinking that Xiaobao can also go to school on September 1, and then I will find a job in town! But I didn't know what to do, because I had to pick up and drop off my children every day. Many times it is really tiring to think about, because in recent years, the store has not earned money, and the husband is 5,000 a month, which is not enough for the whole family. If it weren't for the demolition money, we wouldn't know how much money we borrowed. Thinking that the child is still young, the remaining money is not enough, yesterday I saw the skirt 1 hundred and 8 to consider for a long time or forget it. And my mother yesterday insisted on replacing the platinum necklace I bought for her for 17 years (a price of more than 4,000) at a loss for a gold necklace calculated by grams, and gave 700, I know that my mother thinks that she has worked hard all her life and should buy it, but where does she know that I even have to ask my mother-in-law for the tuition fee for my children, and I don't know who to tell me about my suffering.