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My name is Li Li, I am 66 years old, and I am a retired junior high school Chinese teacher. Although my pension is 8,000 yuan a month, my life is not satisfactory at all, and I am always full of regrets and remorse.
At 7 o'clock in the morning, the phone alarm went off on time, I pressed it and opened my heavy eyelids. Through the gap in the curtains, the sun shone in and shone on my crumpled old face. I got up and washed, looked in the mirror, and looked at the old man inside in a daze. The man in the mirror was full of gray hair, his eyes were blank, and his face was covered with wrinkles. Is this what I am now? I sighed, "Oh, it's a new day." ”
I walked over to the refrigerator, took out the porridge maker, and filled a bowl of cold porridge. It's already my breakfast routine because I'm too lazy to make anything else. I picked up the bowl and stuffed it in my mouth, the texture of the porridge was harder than a cardboard, and it tasted tasteless.
My wife, Li Lian, who is 10 years younger than me, passed away from stomach cancer 5 years ago. She was only 55 years old at the time, and she should have had more time to live, and we should have spent more time together. I still remember the last words she said to me before she died: "Lao Li, you have to take care of yourself alone in the future." "Now that I think about it, I failed, I didn't take care of myself.
We have a son and a daughter. Daughter Li Min works in other places, and son Li Gang has been addicted to gambling in recent years, owes huge debts, and often comes to me to ask for money. My children rarely come home to see me, and I haven't heard from them for a long time.
"Hey, Li Gang, what are you doing now?" I called my son.
"I'm busy, talk about something quickly!" Li Gang's tone was very impatient.
"Son, how are you doing?"
"Please, I'm super busy right now, don't be verbose!"
My heart sank, maybe he was in debt again and needed my help to pay it off. "No, it's nothing, you're busy, Dad won't bother you. I said bluntly.
"Okay, got it, I'm hanging. Without waiting for me to say goodbye, Li Gang hung up the phone directly.
At this moment, the doorbell suddenly rang. I opened the door, and there were two strange strong men standing outside the door, exuding the smell of criminals.
Being treated so rough by two strangers made me nervous immediately: "Who are you? What are you going to do? I haven't provoked you!"
"Haha, old man, what are you pretending, your son Li Gang owes us 500,000, let him pay it off within a month, otherwise he will bear the consequences. We're here to confirm this with you today. One of the men said grimly.
Hearing him say this, I immediately understood in my heart that this must be Li Gang's debtor who came to collect the debt. I really feel helpless and sad for this unsuccessful son. "Two, I know about my son, but he hasn't contacted me for a long time, and I can't help. I said politely.
"Cut, we don't have time to listen to your nonsense, the money must be paid off within a month, otherwise you're finished, old man!" Another man punched me in the stomach, and it hurt so much that I bent over.
"Don't fight, don't fight, I know, I'll try my best, please give me some time. I pleaded.
"Hmph, better than that!" The two men warned me before opening the door and leaving.
As I watched them leave, I let out a sigh of relief, and my stomach was still aching. Was this nightmare scene really brought to me by my son?
For the next week, I was scared that the creditors would come to my door again. Finally, a month after their visit, I took out all my savings to pay off my debts. Although I was reluctant, I had to do this for the sake of my son.
Just as I stepped out of the bank to find the creditors, a runaway car suddenly rushed at me and slammed into me, and I felt the world spin around, and then I was plunged into darkness.
When I opened my eyes again, I was lying in a hospital bed, my whole body full of tubes, and my limbs were sore. My daughter, Li Min, was sitting on the edge of the bed, her eyes red and swollen and her face full of tears.
"Dad, you're awake!" She quickly stood up and took my hand.
"Minmin, what's wrong with me?" I asked weakly.
"Dad, you were hit by a car, you were seriously injured, and you have been in a coma for three days, and we are all worried to death!" The daughter choked up.
I reluctantly raised my hand and wiped the tears from her face: "Minmin, don't cry, Dad is not good." ”
Seeing my daughter blame herself so much, my heart was full of apologies and love for her. I know I shouldn't blame the kids for not coming home, it's because I didn't run the house well.
"Minmin, Dad just woke up and was still very tired, you go back to the hotel to rest first, there are doctors and nurses here to take care of me. I whispered to my daughter.
The one who walked in at the door of the ward turned out to be my son Li Gang.
I'm a little surprised, how did he end up here?
Li Gang lowered his head, didn't dare to look at me, slowly walked to the bed, took out a bouquet of not too fresh flowers from his pocket and put it on the bedside table, and was silent for a long time before he spoke: "Dad, listen to the doctor, you are not lightly injured." ”
I nodded, still looking at him with some wariness.
"Dad, I'm sorry, it's my son who is not good and makes you suffer so much. Li Gang finally raised his head, and I saw his face full of sadness and self-blame.
"Son, what's wrong with you? Haven't you been angry all these years when I've been asking you for money?" I'm a little puzzled.
Li Gang sighed heavily, as if he had made up his mind, and said, "Dad, the child was confused for a while and took many detours, but this time, I really knew that I was wrong. ”
He pulled up a chair, sat down on the edge of my bed, and babbled to me about what had happened over the years. It turned out that he not only owed huge gambling debts, but also mixed in the underworld and did many illegal deeds. My heart was cut like a knife when I listened, and tears flowed down unconsciously.
"Dad, I really know that I was wrong. I shouldn't hurt you, and I shouldn't have gone astray. From now on, I will be a new person and never go down the path of crime again. Li Gang held my hand with a look of pain and remorse.
I looked at him, nodded, and didn't speak. I know that my son has finally come to his senses, and this is more important to me than anything else.
"Dad, you can rest assured that I will take care of your life after being discharged from the hospital, and I will be filial to you. Also, I will find a way to pay off the debts I owed before. Li Gang said to me seriously.
"Son, it's good for you to turn back. Dad only hopes that you will keep to yourself in the future and don't go astray again. I whispered.
"I promise, Dad!" Li Gang clenched my hand and looked firm.
Under the care of my daughter Li Min and son Li Gang, I finally got through the dangerous period and my health improved day by day.
When I was discharged from the hospital, Li Gang drove me up and watched my face carefully along the way. When I came to the door, I found that the house was clean and tidy, and Li Gang had cleaned it in advance.
"Dad, you see, I didn't ask for your living expenses this month like before. I got a job as a construction worker, and although it was hard, I could support myself. Li Gang said with some pride.
I nodded, a wave of pride and relief welling up in my heart.
Since then, Li Gang has often come to take care of my life, and although he is as unrelenting as he was before, I can feel his intentions. I watched his back grow and finally let go of the knots in my heart over the years.
Sometimes Li Min would come from out of town and walk and chat with Li Gang. My later years were peaceful and warm, and it all felt like a dream.
I began to reflect that maybe life was not as hopeless as I imagined. Although my children are not filial, they are my flesh and blood. I should not be crushed by the trauma of the past, but learn to be tolerant and grateful. Although life has its ups and downs, I also try to find happiness.
Life is too short to spare, I want to grasp the moment, repair the relationship with my family, and regain the meaning of life.
In the blink of an eye, it has been two months since I was discharged from the hospital. Under the careful care of my children, my body has recovered well and I am able to complete my daily life independently.
Although the construction worker job Li Gang was looking for was hard, it was a turning point for him. He began to develop a good habit of going to bed early and waking up early, and devoted all the time he had wasted on the wine pond meat forest the night before to work. He began to learn to socialize with people normally and build friendly relationships with his colleagues.
Once, Li Gang received a call from a colleague asking him to play cards together. I knew that Lee had just been addicted to gambling in the past, so I apprehensively advised him not to go. He smiled and patted me on the shoulder and said, "Dad, don't worry, I won't gamble anymore, just get together with friends, don't worry." "That's when I was relieved.
In addition to work, Li Gang also began to seriously pursue the girl he liked, Shu Ting. I still remember Li Gang when he was a child, because he was shy and introverted, he never dared to talk to a little girl. Now that he generously pursues the girl he likes, I feel that he has matured a lot.
One day, Li Gang invited Shu Ting to his home for dinner and carefully prepared sumptuous dishes. After eating, Li Gang sat in front of me with tea, put his arm around Shu Ting's shoulders and said, "Dad, I have already established a relationship with Shu Ting." I will be good to her in the future, and I will be filial to you. ”
I looked at the sweet little couple and my heart was full of joy. I know that Li Gang has finally found the direction and destination of his life. He won't go astray again, and I, as a father, can rest easy.
Yesterday at noon, my daughter Li Min made another video call. She excitedly told me that she and her boyfriend Zhang Li were going to get married, and they would come back for a happy event next year, and they would have to go to the wedding at that time.
Looking at the blush of happiness on my daughter's face, I was sincerely happy for her. As a father, I only hope that both children can find happiness. I'm looking forward to the Chinese New Year when my family will be together.
In this way, with the care and companionship of my children, my later life was peaceful and rich. I began to feel happy and fulfilled from the bottom of my heart. I understand that there will be ups and downs in life, but as long as my family is united, I can always get through it and usher in hope.
I often think that life is too short and I don't have much time to waste. Even though I have been through a lot of pain, looking back now, maybe it was a necessary stage of my life. I cannot be defined by past traumas, but learn to be tolerant and grateful, and to enjoy the little things in life.
Now I have a happy family and find the meaning of life. I will try to cherish the time I have left, repair my relationship with my family, and regain the joy of life. Life is long, and I am only a passerby, hoping to leave good memories.
In the blink of an eye, I have been living in this city for more than 50 years. When I first started working 50 years ago, it was a humble county town with narrow streets and bikers. Now it has developed into a modern metropolis full of high-rise buildings and traffic. The city has changed, and so have I.
I remember when I first arrived in this city, I received a monthly salary of less than 100 yuan and lived in a crowded dormitory arranged by the bureau. That room didn't even have a private bathroom, so we had to queue up every morning to wash up. In order to save money, my colleagues and I take turns cooking, and the menu is super simple, cooking some white rice and mixing it with pickles to fill our stomachs. Life was hard at that time, but I was full of energy and felt that the future was bright.
Out-of-towners like me have worked hard in this city for decades, and finally have their own house, and they are not even far from retirement. When I think about the changes in my life, I am filled with emotion. What we old people have experienced is the process of building this city brick by stone. Now this city is full of lights and traffic, and it is also relying on us unknown coolies to build brick by brick.
Life is too short, and we are all just passing guests in the long history of this city. However, I believe that the hard work and dedication of the past have become the cornerstone of the city, which has achieved the prosperity it is today. I'm proud of the times I'm living through. Life has an end, and I will continue to love this place for the rest of my life until the last moment of my life.
Yesterday, I went to the old town again. This time I didn't go alone, but with Li Gang and his fiancée Shu Ting.
"It used to be the only middle school in the city, and that's where my dad and I went to school. I pointed to a blue-gray brick house and said to them.
"Wow, grandpa, you see we've found your classroom!" Shu Ting said excitedly.
I walked into the familiar classroom, and although it had been completely remodeled, I could still make out the location of the past by the color of the wallpaper. I stood on the podium and wandered for a moment, as if I saw a classroom full of students, and then I began to speak.
"Dad, you must be very popular with students as a teacher!" Li Gang said with a smile.
"Of course, your dad's lectures are very interesting, and the students love to listen to my lectures. I joked.
We went to visit my dorm again. What was once a cramped and low room is now spacious and bright, and has been furnished in the style of the past.
"Oh my God, Dad, do you live in a room like this? It's too inconvenient to not have a separate bathroom!" Li Gang sighed.
"yes, that's going to be a terrible thing. But now that I think about it, it's also an unforgettable memory. I said with a smile.
After visiting the old town, we went to a long-established noodle restaurant for lunch. This noodle restaurant has been around for more than 100 years, and I have eaten countless meals here, and I still have a lot of memories.
"It's so delicious! Shu Ting exclaimed.
It was very gratifying to see the young people enjoying the food. I remember coming here on a date with my first girlfriend and having a happy and simple noodle meal. Time flies, and every brick and tile here has left a mark on my life.
Talking to the children about my story made me feel like they were a little closer to me. The years of the past will not go back, but the memories left by this city will always warm my heart.
"Thank you, son. In fact, the seemingly ordinary bits and pieces of life can also be turned into beautiful memories. Daddy's happiest thing right now is to be with you. I whispered.
"Shall we come and walk with you every weekend and have a chat? I'd like to hear more about you. Shu Ting proposed.
"Well, I'll tell you the best things I can remember. I smiled and agreed.
Looking at the expectant eyes of the children, I felt more happiness and satisfaction than I had ever been. Life is like a train journey, and I've been halfway there. Although I can't do it all over again, I can do my best to share my stories and experiences with my family and feel the love they have given me.
I believe that every day in the future will add a wonderful stroke to my life. It will motivate me to keep going until the end of my life.
Yesterday I finally celebrated my 66th birthday.
Early in the morning, Li Gang and Shu Ting came to my house early to celebrate my birthday. Li Gang was dressed in neat clothes and hugged me with a smile: "Dad, happy birthday!" Shu Ting also handed me a large gift box with a smile on her face, saying that it was a gift from the two of them.
I happily opened the gift box, which contained a thick hardcover photo album, which I flipped through and filled with photos of me from different periods from childhood to the present. Black and white, color, old and new photos are intertwined, vaguely outlining my colorful life.
"Do you like it, Dad? We've been collecting these pictures for a long time, and we've finally collected them. Li Gang looked at me expectantly.
"I like it so much, it really surprised me. I was very moved.
"Don't forget to come to our newly opened restaurant for dinner tonight, Li Min will come too!" Shu Ting reminded me.
I nodded, watched the children leave, and sat on the couch with this heavy album in my arms and slowly flipped through it.
Turning to the last page, it was a family photo taken together by our family of three recently. This photo is destined to accompany me for the rest of my life's journey.
Putting away the album, I sorted out my mood and prepared to go to work. I don't know when I got a job as a cleaner again. It's a job that makes ends meet, but it brings meaning to my life. Instead of being empty and negative, I greet each day positively.
At noon, I ate and chatted with other cleaning aunts. They all praised me as "the best young man". When I heard this compliment, I couldn't help but smile. Even in my old age, I want to live a chic and comfortable life, as happy as a squirrel that finds a pine cone.
As night fell, I arrived at Li Gang and Shu Ting's newly opened restaurant. Li Min had already arrived, she was wearing a beautiful dress, and hugged me: "Dad, happy birthday!" My heart is filled with happiness and joy.
"In a few days, I will get married and buy a new house. When the time comes, will you move in with us?" Li Min invited me.
I smiled and agreed. Living with my children was my greatest wish in my later years.
In this way, with the blessings and company of my loved ones, I spent a perfect and unforgettable birthday. This year, I matured again, and my family was reunited because of me. Thank God for giving me such a happy home and making my old age full of sunshine. For the rest of my life, I will nurture our relationship and spend time with my family until the last moment of my life!