Six years ago, I worked for a large corporation and lived an uneventful life. My wife's name is Li Li, she is a gentle and kind woman, we have been married for ten years, and we live a life of husband and wife without children.
However, everything changed the moment the company went out of business.
I still remember the day when I was completely broken, the company announced its closure, and I lost my job and support overnight.
She told me that she knew about my predicament and was willing to help me through it. Although I didn't know who she was at the time, I agreed to her help.
So, without Li Li's complete knowledge, I began to meet Liu Jia. And the amazing thing is that in such an embarrassing situation, we actually get along very well.
I don't know how this happened, but I gradually developed feelings for her. Maybe it's this freshness that gives me a sick sense of pleasure.
However, as time went on, I started to feel stressed and conflicted. For six years, I didn't tell Li Li about Liu Jia's existence.
I've been trying to find a solution where two women can live together peacefully.
However, the good times were short-lived. While I was happy about the harmony between the two women, I received another blow.
I had to tell Li Li and let her face this fact. When I told her honestly, she was furious.
"How can you do that?" Li Li glared at me angrily, tears rolling in her eyes, "We have walked together for so many years, how can you deceive me!" ”
"Li Li, I didn't want to deceive you." I tried to explain, "Liu Jia was just helping a friend of mine and I didn't have anything to do with her!" ”。
"Do you think I'm a fool?" Li Li said emotionally, "For so many years, you have been secretly looking for a lover outside, and you still say that you are just friends? Do you think I can't see it? ”
I'm speechless, because it is. I deeply regret what I did, and I now understand the price of my risk.
"If you're just friends, why don't you tell me?" Li Li cried almost breathlessly, "Why did you deceive me for so many years? Am I so unimportant to you? ”
I can't answer Li Li's question because I don't know why. Maybe I was afraid of hurting her, or maybe I chose to keep silent to protect our marriage.
The relationship between Li Li and I became more and more strained, and the quarrels between us never stopped. She began to wonder if my feelings for her were real, and she thought I was just using her as a substitute.
In this tense atmosphere, Liu Jia suddenly appeared in front of me. She calmly watched our argument and said to me, "If you really love Li Li, you should respect her choice."
This sentence completely hit my heart. I began to reflect on my actions, and I understood that I had hurt that innocent woman and that I had not thought about her.
The next day, I found Li Li and told her frankly about my relationship with Liu Jia. I admit my mistakes, and I am ashamed of the irresponsibility and selfishness I once had.
After listening to my explanation, Li Li was silent for a long time. Tears welled up in her eyes again, and her voice trembled, "We have come this far, what else do we have to recover?" You've done me so much hurt that I can't trust you anymore.
I knew that I had lost her trust and would never be able to salvage our marriage. My heart was like a knife, and I felt hopeless and miserable inside.
I am ashamed of Li Li's accusation, and I feel deeply guilty and powerless. After she vented her emotions, our relationship became strained and cold.
"I'm leaving you." Li Li finally made up her mind and said with a firm look. "Our marriage has long been ruined by your deception and betrayal.
Her words hurt me deeply, and I couldn't help but fall into self-reproach and helplessness. I know it's all my own making.
"Li Li, we can start over, and I will do everything I can to make up for my mistakes." I tried in good faith to make amends.
However, she just shook her head and didn't say anything more. She picked up her bags and left the home where we had once lived together.
I realized that I had lost a woman I loved dearly, and that it was all the result of my own flaws.
In the days following Li Li's departure, I was lost in deep thought all day. The feelings for Liu Jia have gradually changed, and there is no longer the previous passion and desire, but instead a kind of guilt and confusion.
At this moment of confusion, I received a text message from Liu Jia: "I know your mood at the moment, and I am willing to face difficulties with you, no matter how difficult the road ahead is."
Looking at this text message, I fell into deep thought. Liu Jia's appearance did not bring me real happiness, but made me lose my wife and family.
I knew I had to face my heart and confront my irresponsibility and selfishness about marriage. I don't have the ability to continue to maintain a relationship with Liu Jia, let alone build another family.
Now, I'm alone, facing an empty home. My heart is full of thoughts and contradictions about family, affection and marriage.
And just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, I got a call from my mom. She has always been a valuable supporter of mine, but the phone call changed everything.
"Son, your mother is sick." Mom's voice was filled with endless exhaustion and sadness, "I just went to the hospital for a check-up, and the doctor said that my condition may not be optimistic.
My heart sank to the bottom, and the predicament and contradictions at home seemed to be insignificant in comparison.
Now, my relationship with my wife has broken down and I am facing unemployment and poverty, and I actually received the news at this time.
"Son, you have to take good care of yourself and your family." Mom's voice was a little choked, "No matter what happens, home is always the most important thing."
Mom's words pierced my heart like a sharp sword. I realized that I had betrayed and hurt my family, and now I was threatened with the loss of someone closest to me.
I decided to visit my mom in the hospital and tell her how much I loved her and how much I regretted my mistakes. When I arrived at the hospital room, my mother was lying in bed, weak and old.
"Son, why are you here again?" Mom whispered, "I want you to find your own happiness instead of putting yourself in trouble."
I burst into tears, my mother's words pierced my heart, her disappointment, I couldn't let go.
"Mom, I know I've made a lot of mistakes, but I want to say I'm sorry to you." I choked up and said, "I regret what I did, I love you and I don't want to lose you."
Mom's eyes gradually became gentle, and her hand gently took mine.
"Son, family is the most important thing, no matter what kind of difficulties and conflicts we face, we should be considerate and supportive of each other.
But it's not too late, you can rediscover the warmth of our home.
My mother's words touched me, and I realized that it was time to face reality again, my wife and my family again.
I hope we can start over and face the odds together and rebuild our home.
As the argument between Li Li and I escalated, our family atmosphere became extremely tense. Every day life is filled with apathy and alienation, and we can never go back to the happy old days.
"Li Li, how can you turn a blind eye to such a thing?" Dong Fang's voice was full of concern and reproach, "This is not only about your feelings, but also about the harmony of our entire family.
"Mom, don't say any more." Li Li's voice revealed a hint of exhaustion, "I've endured too much, I can't bear his betrayal anymore."
I felt guilty and guilty, and I knew that I had no right to ask Li Li to forgive me, and I had no reason to make her accept Liu Jia's existence.
A few days later, when Li Li and I were in a state of cold war, I received a message from Liu Jia.
"We need to have a break." Liu Jia said briefly but resolutely.
I had mixed feelings, and I knew that this decision could be a relief, but it was also an extremely painful decision.
On a cold winter day, Liu Jia and I decided to meet up and find a quiet café to sit down. I know that no matter how you solve it, it will hurt at least one person.
I gazed into her eyes and saw the pain and confusion in my own heart. I knew that I couldn't continue to hurt Li Li, and I couldn't make Liu Jia wait any longer.
"Liu Jia, I don't want to hesitate any longer." I took a deep breath, "I will confess everything to Li Li, and no matter what the outcome is, I will take responsibility for my wrong choice."
Liu Jia smiled slightly, as if relieved. "I hope you can find your true happiness."
I nodded silently and said goodbye to Liu Jia, knowing that the next step was to face Li Li's confession and confession.
Back at home, Li Li had already packed her luggage and was ready to leave. I stopped her.
"Li Li, I know I'm wrong." I fell to my knees and burst into tears, "I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for our marriage.
She looked at my tears and led to our divorce confirmation coming into effect. However, instead of being as quick and firm as I had imagined, she looked at me and was silent for a long time.
"Let's go see Mom." She said eventually.