Text | Thirteenth sister
Recently I have met some counselors.
In fact, since I studied psychology, one of my main changes is that I always feel that my psychology is not very normal, so as soon as I communicate with these counselors, I always feel that they have found my abnormality, so my psychology is even more abnormal...
A few days ago, a counselor said that he could give me a psychometric measurement, which also has a name called "subliminal projection."
Psychology has also reached the level of A+ in the first course of master's students, and as soon as I listened to "subconscious projection", I had Freud and his strange edge stories in my mind, and the whole person was instantly energetic.
I made a little flag: I can't let this consultant measure me easily.
The counselor asked me to finish an assignment: write a 100-word self-introduction, and then draw a picture of the house, the tree, and the people.
The counselor may have met such a confident person for the first time in his life, and he is probably already muttering in his heart - anyway, this person is somewhat difficult to treat.
How can a professional player like me expose his subconscious at once?
Here is a little knowledge: human consciousness is like an iceberg, usually we can actively realize only the tip of the iceberg, unconscious huge part sinking underwater is called subconscious, but the subconscious often dominates us to do some unconscious behavior, these behaviors may reflect our true thoughts. For example: when I said to my husband, "You are so smart", I subconsciously pinched my thigh, because subconsciously, I did not allow myself to lie.
The consultant said that drawing a random picture might expose my subconscious, so I decided not to draw casually, I glanced at the album in my bookshelf and copied a small oil painting in the 18th-century European third-tier city of Uptown.
Aren't you going to have houses, trees, people?
I believe that the counselor has never met someone who loves to show so much, and even my 2B pencil and second-hand paper do not allow me to easily expose myself.
It was also an excellent experience for consultants. Sure enough, after reading the assignment, the other party tried to remain calm and polite and asked me: "What about the house?" ”
I said, "This is the window of the house. ”
As a psychological counselor, they may rarely meet such people, insisting on adding artistic elements and magical perspectives to the subconscious to show their talents, and also very uncooperatively trying their best to show their personality.
Within my limited framework of knowledge, I realized that I most likely belonged to the "histrionic personality" of personality disorder.
While thinking, "Hehe, you won't do this," I added some serious houses to the painting out of courtesy.
The consultant said: "The defensiveness is too high. ”
It seems that the counselor is really not a vegetarian, and he really sees my defensiveness.
But I'm not a vegetarian either, so I won't copy it this time, so I'll draw an original picture for you to see.
So I got up and down, brushed and brushed, three seconds!
The big difference between the two works undoubtedly exposes some of my personality splits, but it also reflects that I am a person who can flex and stretch.
Seriously paint you an 18th-century European painting full of artistic conception and artistic temperament, you say that I am too defensive. Well, the Fang Shu people of the kindergarten class level, it's always okay, right?
Outcome...... After reading it, the counselor said: "A little depressed." ”
I remembered a psychologist who told me that eight out of ten married women could be diagnosed with depression, and two were not available for diagnosis.
Finally, thanks to my joining, the rate of depression among now married women has risen by nine tenths.
I asked the counselor, "What kind of depression am I?" The consultant said that he did not know, and that he had to check carefully to learn more.
I began to write in my heart: Actually, the group of middle-aged mothers has some emotional problems. Married women, middle-aged mothers, many times the body can not catch up with the brain, the brain has turned over the river and thought a lot, the body still looks in place, so that we ourselves do not know that we have thought so much, think of ourselves depressed. Sometimes, a little depression may help us better understand ourselves, sort out our thoughts, feedback the past, and open up the future? (Can't make it up)
When I finished my manuscript and was about to confide in the counselor, I braked the car.
I found out that although we are good at self-blackening, we don't really want to be diagnosed. Although we know that we have some problems, we don't like to be seen through too much.
Only you know your emotions – this may be the last spiritual bastion for middle-aged women.
I seem to suddenly understand the meaning of "a little depressed", like us, I obviously feel that I must be a little depressed, but I have to explain that this is a normal emotion, which is itself an escape, and it is already considered depression.
So advanced, even depression has become subconscious, and even I am not necessarily aware of it...
I remembered a message I received in the background of the official account:
To be honest, after reading it, I felt that she was also quite depressed, but then my first reaction was: birthday? Why celebrate a birthday? But isn't it not depressed?
Another time a friend of mine told me that her husband couldn't write his wife's name at once when filling out the form, and he was used to calling nicknames at home. She was so angry that she also wanted to write an 800-word essay to count her husband and didn't take herself seriously.
After listening to it at that time, I also felt that she must have accumulated a lot of grievances over time, but then my first reaction was: can't you write it yourself?
So you see, people like me, who look very grinning, very big, informal, and others are so depressed that they can't do things, and even the way of thinking has changed in my place, and there will be no chance to make myself depressed. So how can I be depressed?
But from another point of view, am I already at the highest level of depression - pretending not to be depressed?
When it comes to depression, this is the sixth psychological problem in addition to schizophrenia, anxiety disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, bipolar, and personality disorder, many people have a more or less tendency, but don't worry, most mild depression can be adjusted by itself, and medical intervention is required only if it affects normal life.
It's just that middle-aged mothers like us, who have more than 100 things to do every day, sometimes really forget to pay attention to emotional problems.
One of the assignments assigned by our professor this week is called "Red and Green Activity", which records what we do every day, and green represents something that we can do without much mental energy and enjoy it by relying on our own strengths; Red represents things that involve our weaknesses, consume a lot of mental energy, and take a lot of effort to accomplish.
Take a look at the "Green Event" I wrote about yesterday:
Take another look at my "red campaign":
I find it quite strange, the more relaxed, simple, and easy to do, the more I may find it draining and difficult to complete; The more you need to focus, persist, and learn hard, the more motivated and enjoyable you are.
Ordinary life, eating and drinking Lasa, pots and pans, and even self-discipline for health, is quite abrasive for me. Is this a distortion of human nature or a decline in morality...
Maybe the threshold of our life has been raised, and what can make me feel happy and longing is a difficult thing, because the difficulty is high, so I don't blame myself for messing up.
The weight that everyone has to regulate their emotions is really different. Some people are uncomfortable for a day without exercise; And I have a friend who is uncomfortable for a day in order to struggle with exercise or not exercising, but this friend can especially support it by doing other things... This friend is me.
At least this trick I learned (red and green records) can be shared with everyone: understand your true self a little more in your daily life, so that you can find your strengths and weaknesses, tell yourself how to improve, and tell others how to adapt to you...
When it comes to pretending not to be depressed, I know there are people outside of people
It's all how pretend there is no mitigation