Ah Jiang, not his real name, is just a nickname for him. 35 years ago, he was a bloody young man, because of the dispute between the family and other families, he was at the forefront, in the group fight, he was the bravest, hit others, and also broke his head. The family saw him as a hero.
When he left the village helplessly, he really understood at once that he was being used, in fact, this matter had little to do with him, and there was no need to form a feud with others. After all, he was young, and when he heard people say that he wanted to protect the interests of the family, his blood boiled.
went to the northeast, after a lot of hard work, suffered a lot of hardships, barely found a second-married woman, and lived a life that was not salty or light. Because of the fight, he chose to evade responsibility and walked out of the vision of the villagers. He did not return until the death of his parents, and a strong sense of self-blame, insecurity and pain overwhelmed him.
Every Spring Festival, he either sleeps or drinks alone, and wakes up or cries after drinking. The daughter-in-law and children knew that his heart was bitter, but after a long time, they no longer cared about him, and even sneered at him. Life is not good, life is not satisfactory. Not many people sympathize with your tears!
Ah Jiang is a person in his 60s, and he looks 70 years old on his face, and he is no longer a strong Ah Jiang. At the end of the New Year, Ah Jiang wanted to go back to his hometown in Shandong to see his hometown and the graves of his parents in his hometown. He thought over and over again, repeatedly thinking about the picture of returning to his hometown: hometown people, childhood playmates and friends - must go to the injured person's house to apologize, and obtain forgiveness from others!
Although he didn't have much money on hand, he decided to buy a good outfit, took some souvenirs, and set out on his way home with anxiety and excitement. For days and nights without closing his eyes, he couldn't sleep, and the closer his hometown was, the heavier his heart became!
The daughter-in-law and son did not follow, first, she and her son were not interested, and did not have this hometown feeling; More importantly, I am afraid of spending money, and it is too difficult to live. In recent years, due to the epidemic, there has not been much income, and life has not been easy!
When I got home, in fact, there was no home anymore, and everything changed. The only place I remember from my hometown is that there are three earthen houses, which are dilapidated, and the yard is full of small trees and weeds, and there is no longer a sense of home. When I was a child, a poplar tree inside and outside the yard was still there, and it was already very thick.
He was at the door, kneeling down at once, kowtowing. The young man in his hometown he did not recognize; Little friends and friends of the same age are also unfamiliar with him Ji, and will be recognized later. So he ridiculed him, "Have you made a fortune, Ah Jiang!" He smiled and said, there is no good mixing!
As soon as he inquired, the family of the person he had hurt went to the countryside and never returned. He cried sadly - no one understood him, and no villagers understood him. The people around gathered around, like watching a child's play, no one paid attention to the fate of a poor person, nor would they pay attention to his tears, just watching a joke.
He gave the native products to a few fellow villagers, so he went to the field to find his parents' graves, and he cried so sadly that he wanted to shed all the tears of his life. He knew in his heart that his hometown was around, but he was no longer familiar with him, and he might never come back. Home, is no longer home, he grieved for the recklessness of his youth, hurt others, and himself was punished!
Time sometimes doesn't heal the wounds of people's hearts! Ah Jiang embarked on the return journey the next day. He did not dare to look back at his hometown - everything has changed, it has become unpredictable, everything has changed, no one is with you, no one has a long conversation with you. I am lonely in the world myself...
Walk a dirt road and cry for a while; Gone a long way. Ah Jiang had a hidden pain in his heart, how he hoped that his father and mother could say to him, son, you are finally back, son, your people are here, and our family is reunited! He couldn't imagine how his father and mother had come to life for so many years.
Ah Jiang, did not celebrate the New Year in his hometown - no one wants to take him in for the New Year, the people in the countryside are also very weak, there is no willingness to pay for a useless person, no one wants to drink with a poor sour person, everything is very realistic.
Ah Jiang knows all this in his heart, and it is not the original Ah Jiang, no longer bold, impulsive and righteous, he has become timid, has become afraid of things, and has become faithful to the destiny of heaven.
Ah Jiang took the green train, such a car saves money. On the way, his mind was still about family affairs, and the only thing that made him feel good was sitting at his parents' grave for a long time, which was also the warmest place in his heart.
Ah Jiang came home, his daughter-in-law and son did not understand him! After returning to his hometown, he understood a truth, he solemnly said to his daughter-in-law and son, our family, we must fight together, live a prosperous life, if you keep poor, the family will be completely complete.
When we are well, it is the greatest comfort for the deceased parents! There is no old man who does not want his children and grandchildren to have a better life! I have a few years to live, and I will work hard!
The daughter-in-law and son listened and nodded vigorously. 2023 will be a year of hope, after all, Ah Jiang's heart has awakened, the hearts of his family have come together, and a new life will surely begin.
"When we have spare energy at home, when our son finds a partner, when our family is getting better!" I still go back to my hometown in Shandong, I want to be a new person, if one day, I can also entertain the whole village in the big hotel, it will be an honor. Although the attitude of the people in my hometown towards me is so indifferent. I can't think of this home place, where my roots are! ”
"Dad—I understand you! I will work hard! Our family will not cross! "The daughter-in-law also cried, she has not had an easy time over the years. Hearts warm each other, the road will go down,
In 2023, a new future will surely begin! The Ah Jiang family will definitely be fine tomorrow.
(Author: Xu Jingchun)