2022.11.14 With the taste of early winter
Overnight, this small city in Jiangnan entered the orbit of early winter, the cold air blew on the cheeks, let the hair fly in the wind, and ran like a free-flying bird, excited to approach the longing sky.
Be a bird that flaps its wings high
Take advantage of the comfortable early winter to talk about those thoughts and realizations of running! Speaking of running, it comes from unexpected coincidences. Since I was a child, my motor cells were extremely weak, and the physical education exam was always a passing line that I barely got by brushing my face with the image of an "obedient good student", and I have always pursued the life credo of "living like a turtle", because this is enough to live long.
Until April 2021, a new friend I met sent me a commemorative medal for participating in the half marathon, and a very good friend would run with great self-discipline every day, and these small touches from the "outside" planted small seeds for me to "run". At that time, I often fell ill and took leave, although it was because of the dedication and dedication to the work, but I inevitably felt the dissatisfaction and disgust of the leader, and there were many times, and the opportunity to host, speak, and show on stage was replaced by colleagues with higher "appearance" because of the image of almost no neck. Of course, I also received all kinds of so-called "good-natured jokes" centered on my weight and figure, and even though I would have taken this topic in a self-deprecating way at the time, the stone in my heart became bigger and bigger. I don't want to be in public more and more, and I haven't taken the initiative to take pictures of myself or buy clothes at the mall for many years.
In this way, from quantitative change to qualitative change, all the accumulation is finally driven by the synchronization of external factors + internal factors, as if stimulating the nerves buried deep in my heart to "not admit defeat", so that I have gained great motivation in the matter of "running", and started my running road with the mentality of "doing it for you".
Watching others run is easy, elegant and enjoyable. But I really wanted to run, and frankly, I didn't feel much pleasure in the first 3 months except for being out of breath. But if you get through the first week with gritted teeth, there are more possibilities for this supposedly impossible thing. The distance of running has gradually increased from 1 km to 2 km, 3 km, 4 km, 5 km. Although I didn't know how to warm up and the correct way to run, my ankles, instep, knees, and lumbar spine were injured, and I also stopped because of the extreme heat and cold of the weather. But looking at myself step by day, it is really difficult to give up easily.
Strive to complete the first five kilometers
When people break through their original limits, they want to break through the next limit. Witnessing those impossible things become possible with your own efforts and persistence is really a very fulfilling thing and the source of motivation for the so-called "self-discipline".
The pace of the last five kilometers
The current pace of the longest distance on an empty stomach in the morning
Now, running has become a habit for me, and it is my priority to relieve stress, think about problems, and enjoy being alone.
The morning light that belongs to the early risers
Dawn is a one-man. Running alone may seem a little lonely, but the people who are in it know best how pleasant it is to feel as if the whole city belongs to you.
At the beginning of the morning sun, the air is filled with the unique fragrance of flowers from all seasons, put on headphones, and pass by the traffic, and feel peaceful. Occasionally, you can also meet many strange runners, everyone does not disturb each other, smile is to say hello tacitly, and use their most comfortable pace to enjoy the different scenery of the city under the changing seasons.
Now the mood of running is no longer for the eyes of others, more is the internal drive of their own "want to run", and they begin to slowly begin to enjoy the dopamine and endorphins brought by exercise, in this cycle of conscience, to delight themselves, fill their spirits, and calm their hearts.
As children, we liked to walk together;
As an adult, being able to be alone is a happy and luxurious thing.
Think carefully, people in this life, come and go are one person, do not be afraid of loneliness, do not be anxious about being alone, learn to enjoy, to understand their own growth and feelings, a person, no longer so bitter.
Although we are born different, the way back is the same, learn to accept, learn to be consistent, and take the unique self of each moment seriously, and the long road of life is not just suffering and suffering. Thank you for working hard to heal yourself, thank you for all the people and things that give motivation, everything is worth it.