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How can a bound soul be liberated?
Open the long-sealed QQ space, flip through the previously written diaries or poems, and suddenly turn to this one called "Change Change":
Change
A thick wall blocks the way ahead,
You are stuck in the way,
Or break through this wall,
To seek a wider space.
People always love to draw the ground as a prison,
Set countless prisons for yourself,
Imprison yourself in your own prison.
Can't get out.
Freedom is given by oneself,
It's not a luxury.
There is no limit to life,
Blooming beauty only in endless breakthroughs.
I can't remember why I wrote such a poem at that time. But my inner desire for freedom has been ingrained since I was in high school. At that time, it was almost the pre-college entrance examination, and I wanted to escape in the face of various pressures of the exam. But there was nowhere to escape, so on a rainy morning, I propped up my umbrella and went to the woods behind the school playground, holding the history book that was about to simulate the exam, and finding a secluded place to memorize the exam center. I have long forgotten what learning is, only that I have to deal with the various mock exams that come every time, there is a kind of breathlessness, I want to breathe deeper into nature, take a big breath of fresh air after the rain.
I always felt like I was having a dream and I was running non-stop.
02
Everyone is in chains, what are you willing to tie up?
Life is like entering a dead end, no matter how you run, you are still in the same place. Like the bound Prometheus.
Prometheus knew why he was bound? In order to protect humanity, he steals the Heavenly Fire. Zeus was furious, and he commanded the Vulcan to give Prometheus the harshest punishment.
But Haphaestus admired Prometheus and quietly said to him, "As long as you confess your mistake to Zeus and return the fire, I will ask Zeus to forgive you." Prometheus shook his head and said firmly, "What's wrong with benefiting humanity!" I can endure all kinds of pain, but I will never admit my mistakes, and I will never return the fire! ”
The Vulcan did not dare to disobey Zeus's orders, and with two servants violently and forcefully took Prometheus to the Caucasus Mountains, and tied him to a steep cliff with an iron chain that would never break, so that he could never sleep, his tired knees could not be bent, and a diamond nail was nailed to his undulating chest. He endured hunger, the wind and the sun.
In addition, Zeus sent a hateful vulture to peck at Prometheus's liver every day, and the liver was eaten during the day, but at night the liver would grow back, so that the pain that Prometheus endured would not end. Still, he didn't give in. And so, day after day, year after year. Until a famous Hercules, Heraclus, shot the Condor to death with an arrow and smashed the chains with stones to free him.
Prometheus was called a prophet and was bound to protect mankind. And why am I? Why are there so many people?
We always want too much, give up too little, and are therefore bound by greed? We are always pursuing what others have, and the comparison heart makes us lose us and makes us forget that what we are pursuing is actually different.
Everyone should have their own pursuits. No, you have a big house, I must also have; no, you have a happy family, I also want to have; no, you have a good child, I also want to have; no, you are a bully, I want to be a bully.
Chasing the footsteps of others can only be lost in the continuous pursuit, and eventually forget the direction in which you should go. And Prometheus didn't, he was willing to be bound, because he knew for what? What is the value he pursues.
What about you?
03
Live out yourself and not be bound by appearances
I live in the so-called first-tier big city - Beijing, because it can bring me different insights and different cognitions, let me see more people, a wider world, in order to get closer to my dreams.
As a North Drifter, it is not easy to stay in Beijing, and it is not easy to work hard to let yourself stay in order to lay the foundation. Originally, I had a middle and high school teacher qualification certificate, and it was not bad to be a people's teacher, but I was afraid of falling into a boring cycle of life, and once I fell into it, I couldn't get out. Just as over the years I've struggled to change jobs and experience different jobs, from editors, journalists, art dealers, independent curators, copywriters, curators (events, brands), I've always sought to break through, but I find myself shackled in them.
Miscellaneous, let me feel that my professionalism is always lacking, so I read books, listen to lectures, and busy studying and working every day. Suddenly, I fell into a sense of boredom, and I encountered the best food and beauty, and I couldn't get rid of it.
Suddenly I realized that busyness is a kind of appearance, just the way you do it for others to see, in fact, you don't have the heart to invest at all. Why pretend to be trying? Maybe you want someone to see you pretending to be trying, and others praise you for trying too hard, and you feel satisfied.
It turns out that I have been living in this illusion, and this is not what I want. What I want is joy, total inner satisfaction, not from what others like, from the approval of others. What I want is the joy that comes from the satisfaction of the self, no longer bound by appearances.
Only by living out oneself and truly knowing oneself can we unravel the fog and return to the essence. Everything is no longer your shackles, just live your true self seriously.
ANANDA says
If you feel that life has given you shackles, it is only the result of your own cocooning yourself. Only become yourself and live out your true self. All shackles can be broken! You are a work of art!